Is it just me or does it seem that the older we get, the more we tend to tailor our dreams and aspirations to the cowardly, downsized, dimensions of what we perceive to be our actual abilities and limitations? For instance, if when I was six years old, some one would have asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I'd have said, "I want to be a ( Read more... )

 Four years ago today I journaled on this day because the day before had been too traumatic for me to think of jotting down even a single a trivial thought.  I'm writing again on this day because that held true for yesterday as well.  I think of him all the time, but when that specific day comes my mind races with what could have been if only I'd ( Read more... )

 I have a strange loyalty to livejournal, but ever since I was a kid I've been writing in journals, leaving them incomplete and starting in new ones before the pages of the previous ones are complete.  Livejournal, being internet based, has an infinite number of pages and document my wisdom or lack thereof from stages in my life that I am not very ( Read more... )

I don't really know what's going on with me lately.  I think my emotions are raging out of control on account of fluctuating hormones brought on by Aunt Flow who has already overstayed her fucking welcome!  That bitch!  I'm running out of tampons and patience!!!

Monica might be coming this weekend.  YAY!!!  Or I might be going back to Gainesville ( Read more... )

Thirteen things meme.

Thirteen random things that make you happy
01) Intelligent, respectful, good-looking men
02) Intelligent, respectful, good-looking women
03) Yellow
04) Sunlight
05) When my clients thank me exsessively for helping thier families/children/situations
06) Writing
07) Pot
08) Clean house/ laundry
09) Musicals
10) NETFLIX
11) Watermelon trucks
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Sooo, I haven't posted in a while.  A long while actually.  I came back and read some of you guy's entries and my have a missed you all.  Many comments will abound!  I've found your lives strangely similar to the way I left them.  I'm glad to be back.  I feel like I've done too many returns though, like Michael Jordan or Jay-Z.

Today I started day ( Read more... )

I just want to be a good person. That's all. It's hard for me to show how much I care about people cuz I always make the mistake of loving way too hard. What the fuck is wrong with me? I really want to know what makes me care so much more for people than they can ever care in return? Do I have some type of attachment problem? And what about me ( Read more... )

I would want nothing more than to be sitting in the middle of a boring ass archeology lecture right now. ANYTHING would be better than what I've been going thru these past few days ( Read more... )

I did it!!!  I really fucking did it!!!

Today, I finished taking out my twists.  After a lot of hestation and maybe one or two squeezed out tears, I did it.  It too sooo much  for me to muster up the courage and then all of a sudden, like an omen from God up above, India Arie's song, "I am not my hair" came on and  I just HAD to do it.  I cut off ( Read more... )

It's been a minute but I'm still alive. Something prompted me to update ( Read more... )