Tard....bleh!
I don't really know what's going on with me lately. I think my emotions are raging out of control on account of fluctuating hormones brought on by Aunt Flow who has already overstayed her fucking welcome! That bitch! I'm running out of tampons and patience!!!
Monica might be coming this weekend. YAY!!! Or I might be going back to Gainesville this weekend!! YAY!! Either way, it's fourth of July weekend and I think I"m adding another day to my time off. I think i'm takin' off Monday from my retched little fuck of a job. I was supposed to be going to PRIDE. That's pretty much a no-go. Iman mentioned going, but I doubt if I have the energy to keep toying with the idea. Everytime I try to plan to go it gets shot down, so this year I won't even bother to say, "I'll go next year!" FUCK PRIDE! I'm not even proud anymore.
I think this week, starting Thursday will actually look up for me as, my brothers and Shannon should be coming back so I wont' be so lonely. The weekend is over so I can drown myself in work to ignore the lonliness until they return. The evenings are the hardest. If my dog, Gimli wasn't here, I'd have lost it by now.
I'm viciously seeking employment in DC to start in November because I am so done with the south. There's a certain some one down here that I'm avoiding getting too close to cuz I don't want no bullshit when it's time for me to leave, but my lonesome heart seeks relationships like they might rid me of every problem I've ever had in life. Right now my mind is hellbent on returning home to my beloved Maryland, but I also know how indecisive I can be and how much I hate moving on top of being extremely laxzy and too close to my brothers to leave them.
God, give me the strength to leave the DICK of America alone! Stupid Florida, stupid Pride fest, stupid JOB, stupid lonliness!!!!!! Curse you all!!