so thursday binged purged whatever,
got baked,
baked some cookies and ate them all, then purged.
friday i get on the scale, same weight as the day before.
okay good.

i had a peice or turkey bacon for breakfast because my stomach was extra fucked feeling.
then i get home and binge and purge. fuck.
okay, so i work out a bit and then go to meet my aunt for ( Read more... )

in a moment of weakness i binged and purged.
and worked out "in excess"
i got told i needed to gain weight today at the edp.
i am not taking life in general well right now.
i need to get clean of substances.
i dont know why, but it seems like a good first step.

the good: ran 2 consecutive miles in under 15 minutes
the bad: binging, purging, edp
the ugly: ( Read more... )

once again i dont have anything much to insightful to say.
i restricted all day, binged and purged, took pills.
tomorrow i have other plans.
tomorrow i am detoxing my body of food chemicals, and pill toxins.
and putting in water, coffee, and ganja.
sweating out the bad.
my grandpa is laying in a hospital bed, on a cloud of fentanyl, still feeling pain.
he ( Read more... )

i am sitting post binge and purge
my hearts beating in a strange pattern.
acids burning my throat
i have a stomach ach, but not due to the massive intake or the purging.
nerves from what i may gain from this episode
the binge was around 3000 calores.
i am scared of what my weight is going to do.
terrified.
i made a plan of action as i was mindlessly ( Read more... )