Am i a sadist to want to experience pain? Is something wrong with me when i push the limits of my emotions and sanity to the point where i fear to dream? I am an experienced lucid dreamer but when i dream, my emotions take over like i'm watching myself writhe in pain. I have to face my dreams if i want to get past this. It will be my biggest ( Read more... )

Ok so it's kind of like the mirror in Harry Potter (tm) that shows you your greatest desires. But i felt like i was looking into that same mirror only it showed parts of my past that i had so many emotions about but still wanted to linger on them. I felt angry, envyous, sad, and remorse and pain, and joy all at once. I'm at work and not in the mood ( Read more... )

I've said this line a lot but i mean what i say and i mean for it to mean something to you. I always have been, and i always will be there for you, but sometimes i just want to be there with you. I don't know this other guy but i know you. You have the most likable personality and it's a wonder why you don't have more friends because the ones you ( Read more... )

I hate dreams that portray what is on your mind, especially what you're trying to suppress. I had a dream that was messed up as usual and it was going well until she popped into my dream. She tends to do that a lot. I hate that i think of her all the time, i hate that i cry when i pass her neighborhood, i hate how she was such a big part of my life ( Read more... )

To gaze among the immortal stars, i can't help but feel sad for them. To have been around for so long and see so much they are wise beyond any of us but they have seen lovers who have watched them pass away, seen kings and empires fall beneath them, they have seen me and i them; The stars, no one knows loss better than them. They were there the ( Read more... )

Crazy, jimmy hendrix rocked my entire reality while josh controlled the weather and i was in the desert.

Other than that i like women, do they like me back?

Find out tonight at 11.

I spilled coffee on my lyrics ( Read more... )

I don't know if you have experienced this, but isn't it amazing how just the sound of someones voice can affect you? Just a certain tone in there voice can make you melt or those last few words before they hang up the phone can make you shed a few tears when there was a time that they made you cry all night. You will make and lose relationships all ( Read more... )

I love the rain. I love breathing it in, the smell, the taste, the feel. It's wonderful. I want to stress that word, wonderful; It means the exact word contained within it, wonder. The rain reminds me of things, things that calm me. I want to sit on a porch with someone and watch the rain. I want to slow dance in the rain and get drenched, i think ( Read more... )

Generally going anywhere with friends i sit in the back seat. On one recent trip i was laying down looking up at the sky as the light posts and buildings passed below. I watched the stationary sky and fixated on one star. This particular star was shinning bright and i briefly questioned if it was an airplane or a just a bright star but it didn't ( Read more... )