Brave new world
Am i a sadist to want to experience pain? Is something wrong with me when i push the limits of my emotions and sanity to the point where i fear to dream? I am an experienced lucid dreamer but when i dream, my emotions take over like i'm watching myself writhe in pain. I have to face my dreams if i want to get past this. It will be my biggest breakthrough in dreaming. I fear to lose what i have already lost, it tortures me in my dreams, feeding on my fears and showing me everything i don't want to happen. There is so much to fear in dreams because they reflect your inner soul and thoughts and feelings. But becoming lucid means knowing that you are dreaming, and knowing what comes along with that.