i sure COULD complain. Things aren't totally how i'd like them right now, in some hella significant ways. But, all isn't lost, so i'm not going down that road ( Read more... )

Fuck You ( Read more... )

i'm so upset ( Read more... )

So i already decided i would be okay with indulging myself during my lunch break...i combined my chocolate binge with strawberries, mostly because it's delicious, but also to tell myself  "Look, fruit is involved, at least when you do the emotional eating thing you toss in the antioxidants". And i only did the dessert thing after i ate something ( Read more... )

So i have been in a really good mood lately. And by good mood, i mean, i feel sooo like ME, and the me i want to be. it's been awhile ( Read more... )

It's been an interesting couple of days. I spent all weekend with my boyfriend, who i am very in love with. I enjoyed the constant time with him -- it's not something we always do...we usually get together late at night, and then i scamper off to get shit done around my house or to work/babysit during the day, maybe to get back together, and then i ( Read more... )

My own display of neediness both worries and annoys me. i can see that...or at least, i gather that...my earlier demonstrations of affection were sweet, shared, wanted...and they became, to both me and him, a burden, a facade; i wanted reassurance through touch, but no, wait, more than reassurance -- i wanted the illusion of everything all right, ( Read more... )