why don't i orgasm with my boyfriend?!?! >:(
i'm so upset.
forget everything i felt before about being okay with it.
i'm pissed. i'm 25, and i'm fucking broken. how come i orgasm by myself but not with my PARTNER? ANYMORE? EVER?
He was the first person i ever had an orgasm with without using a condom. for some reason that stands out to me. it was different, it felt extremely nice.
and i've never had them regularly with him. it's not him...i love what he does, i love the way i feel when he fucks me.
just, what the fuck? just now i even got that spasm-y feeling in my belly. with HIM. So why didn't i come?
i don't understand.
i don't like it.
it doesn't feel fair at all.
shit, earlier today i was thinking for a spirituality project i'm working on, that i was going to do a creative project about sex. the difference between sex that means something to an amazing spiritual degree, and sex that feels empty even.
and now i'm not orgasm-ing with the person who inspired the whole project.
fuck fuck fuck. what is WRONG?
forget everything i felt before about being okay with it.
i'm pissed. i'm 25, and i'm fucking broken. how come i orgasm by myself but not with my PARTNER? ANYMORE? EVER?
He was the first person i ever had an orgasm with without using a condom. for some reason that stands out to me. it was different, it felt extremely nice.
and i've never had them regularly with him. it's not him...i love what he does, i love the way i feel when he fucks me.
just, what the fuck? just now i even got that spasm-y feeling in my belly. with HIM. So why didn't i come?
i don't understand.
i don't like it.
it doesn't feel fair at all.
shit, earlier today i was thinking for a spirituality project i'm working on, that i was going to do a creative project about sex. the difference between sex that means something to an amazing spiritual degree, and sex that feels empty even.
and now i'm not orgasm-ing with the person who inspired the whole project.
fuck fuck fuck. what is WRONG?