& this is where I am now. I said 2 Rosaries for her earlier [1 Rosary of Liberation & a regular Rosary]. I can see myself giving my heart back to her. But I know that I can't... I won't. Because I know she doesn't care [even though I want her too ( Read more... )

December 10th, 2005 began the slow & disturbing decent of our relationship. It began with her giving me a polite smile from across the Church; bobbing her head with a hello. Every week after that until January 14th, it became worse. Her & her friends would look back @ me, turn around again & giggle. Everyone in the Church knew that I loved A.C ( Read more... )

Then, something happened that I'm not sure what it was. I know I was frustrated & angry with her because A.C. kept letting me know that she wanted to be close to me, but retreated every time, singing about how she was having too much fun being single ( Read more... )

As the weeks passed, she never rejected my advances. However, while I was in ear shot, she would parade about with eagerness & conviction that she "enjoyed her single life". Now, when I started going to her Church, I made a promise to God. I told God that I would attend her prayer meeting for 6 months to give it a try to see if that was the ( Read more... )

That Saturday... just days after meeting A.C.... my sister was hosting an outside retreat for her Church [hence the meeting on Wednsday]. I knew A.C. would be there so I went. I cleared the day for this [I had to leave by 3pm because I had to be @ work that night]. I did not see her there @ 1st, but she caught my attention quickly. She had a ( Read more... )

[It should be noted that I'm writing this here because I'm not going to pay a head-shrink hundreds of dollars because I need to vent ( Read more... )

This is for all of you Catholics out there who might come across this journal. I am asking you to keep me in your prayers. I can't go into specifics about it, but I'm desperately in need of all of your prayers & God's favore. Thank you everyone.

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This year started out great. Work was awesome. Pals were cool. I was on the ball with my art & writing. The woman I'm in love with gave me some hope that we'd eventually be together, all I had to do was wait for her ( Read more... )

May God keep & bless each & every 1 of you on this blessed year.