Confessions of a lack-luster bloke (part 4)
Then, something happened that I'm not sure what it was. I know I was frustrated & angry with her because A.C. kept letting me know that she wanted to be close to me, but retreated every time, singing about how she was having too much fun being single.
November 15th, 2005 came around & changed everything. I was talking to her brother, R.C. online. I was venting to him [I know I shouldn't have because a) he's her brother & b) he's only a teenager & shouldn't have to hear about these things]. A.C. barged into R.C.'s room, removed him from it & locked him out. She then began reading the IM's & became angry. Very angry. She told me straight forwardly that she had already told me she wasn't ready for anything serious. I agreed & accepted that. My argument was: don't lead a man on if you're not ready for him. & we left things up in the air like this. She was hurt & so was I. But this time, I was not only hurt, but angry. Her brother finally was able to get back into his room & I bade him farewell for the evening.
That was when everything changed.
On November 19th, I could feel the tension between us. She looked @ me once the entire night & smiled. But it wasn't the same smile. It was more of a polite smile. A simple, "I see you & know that you're alive," type of smile. Then, the following week, on the 26th, it was when I knew things weren't ever going to be the same again. Her prayer group had an impromptu Thanksgiving meal. A.C. wasn't there. I called her on her cell phone & asked what was going on & why she didn't tell me about this. Her response was, "Oh, I just didn't think of you. That's why I didn't call you to tell you about this dinner." My heart sank & I just went home.
On December 2nd, I was able to get my hands on a pair of tickets to an advanced screening for "The Chronicles of Narnia". I immediately called her up to ask if she wanted to go [since it was her idea for us to hang out together & be friends... not mine]. We talked from 6:01pm until 6:48pm that night. It began as polite conversation before I build up enough courage to ask her to the movies. I was not only rejected faster than Batman can kick butt, but I was rejected in multiple ways as well. The phone call began with her telling me that we should hang out. But she couldn't go to the movies because she taught Catecism on Wednsday nights for her Church. So, I asked if she wanted to see the movie another night. That was when it was made known to me that we would never hang out... ever! According to her, she was busy 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. According to her, she wasn't going to have a free day until some time after late April or mid May of 2006. We might hang out then.
When we hung up, I knew my hope in her was like a man hit by a speeding car: dying.
[To be continued....]
November 15th, 2005 came around & changed everything. I was talking to her brother, R.C. online. I was venting to him [I know I shouldn't have because a) he's her brother & b) he's only a teenager & shouldn't have to hear about these things]. A.C. barged into R.C.'s room, removed him from it & locked him out. She then began reading the IM's & became angry. Very angry. She told me straight forwardly that she had already told me she wasn't ready for anything serious. I agreed & accepted that. My argument was: don't lead a man on if you're not ready for him. & we left things up in the air like this. She was hurt & so was I. But this time, I was not only hurt, but angry. Her brother finally was able to get back into his room & I bade him farewell for the evening.
That was when everything changed.
On November 19th, I could feel the tension between us. She looked @ me once the entire night & smiled. But it wasn't the same smile. It was more of a polite smile. A simple, "I see you & know that you're alive," type of smile. Then, the following week, on the 26th, it was when I knew things weren't ever going to be the same again. Her prayer group had an impromptu Thanksgiving meal. A.C. wasn't there. I called her on her cell phone & asked what was going on & why she didn't tell me about this. Her response was, "Oh, I just didn't think of you. That's why I didn't call you to tell you about this dinner." My heart sank & I just went home.
On December 2nd, I was able to get my hands on a pair of tickets to an advanced screening for "The Chronicles of Narnia". I immediately called her up to ask if she wanted to go [since it was her idea for us to hang out together & be friends... not mine]. We talked from 6:01pm until 6:48pm that night. It began as polite conversation before I build up enough courage to ask her to the movies. I was not only rejected faster than Batman can kick butt, but I was rejected in multiple ways as well. The phone call began with her telling me that we should hang out. But she couldn't go to the movies because she taught Catecism on Wednsday nights for her Church. So, I asked if she wanted to see the movie another night. That was when it was made known to me that we would never hang out... ever! According to her, she was busy 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. According to her, she wasn't going to have a free day until some time after late April or mid May of 2006. We might hang out then.
When we hung up, I knew my hope in her was like a man hit by a speeding car: dying.
[To be continued....]