There comes a point in everyone's life, I assume, when you just don't really know what to do with yourself. What is the definition of wasting your life? Living it? It feels like a big confusing mess right now of being perfectly content and knowing that it will all soon come to an end. I feel so confused right now of who I should love in this ( Read more... )

There is this guy in my life right now named Joshua. He really is a great guy. He is really funny, atractive, and just as sweet as he could be. Plus he isn't at all homophobic... which is a big plus since Jonathan is a big part of my life. He actually thinks of him as a good friend, I think, which isn't something most straight guys would do. ( Read more... )

You always told me you hadn't and weren't using me, but that's hard for me to believe now. Obviously I didn't mean enough to you to even say goodbye. Again. All you left behind was the empty card you never bothered to write in or give to me on my birthday.

As if I hadn't been hating who I was enough lately. My best friend told me yesterday that I was disgusting. He has very strong feelings about bisexuals, you see. Most people don't think too High of them, that is why I chose one side... I guess it doesn't work like that, though. I realize this lately, and I FEEL disgusting. I didn't need to be ( Read more... )

Today was supposed to be my lucky day. November 27. two and seven are my lucky numbers, my birthday is in November, and the past few years I have had really good things happen on this day. I got my drivers license on this day when I was sixteen, I got my braces off the year to the day after that, and yada yada. Today kind of sucked ass though. ( Read more... )

Today is thanksgivng. My first thanksgiving away from home. Today I was seriously hurt by what I thought was a good friend of mine. I guess she doesn't think the same way. I cried over the words I heard she said, And I want to cry now thinking about it. How does she not know how I feel about her? How is it that after all this she could be ( Read more... )

My little apartment. THe Limelight. Beds cover about half of the walkable space, but it just feels like a big slumber party. There is something about the light that makes it feel like I am in a dream right now. Tab and Jon are asleep right now, preparing for a night at the escape. I have had plenty of sleep today so i decided to have a chat ( Read more... )

I think it is really weird when you have a dream about someone you haven't thought of in a long time. Last night I had a dream about two mormon girls I used to go to school and be okay friends with. The situation was that me and Jonathan were living in an apartment (but not the one we are in now), and the two girls, and one of their moms showed ( Read more... )

Where the fuck is my life going? I don't even have a clue. I just want to hike to the top of a mountain and scream right now. I won't indulge you all in the information of why, but I feel seriously fucked up now and it needs to change... but change to what ( Read more... )

So I dyed my hair dark brown yesterday and it turned out more of a blackish shade. I don't really care because it is just hair, but I don't know what my preppy little bakery job will think of it ( Read more... )