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As if I hadn't been hating who I was enough lately. My best friend told me yesterday that I was disgusting. He has very strong feelings about bisexuals, you see. Most people don't think too High of them, that is why I chose one side... I guess it doesn't work like that, though. I realize this lately, and I FEEL disgusting. I didn't need to be told it.
This whole fucked up lifestyle of mine just started because I just wanted to have somebody to love me. I never really have felt loved by a guy like that... so then I got a girlfriend, and I really did feel loved. What the fuck ever, though. I don't need to explain myself. I just feel really confused, And I don't think I am stable enough in my mind to have any sexual or relationship contact with either sex. So fuck it, I won't. I am going asexual. I am going to be abstinent. For real. Maybe that will stop some of the dacay of my head.
I feel so fucking alone right now. I really wish I had my sister here. I really want to call her but she is with my mom and brother and neisha, and I don't want them all to hear me in this state. I miss Tabatha. She hasn't called me since she left so I don't even have her number.
Tears actually take out with them some of the chemicals that make you feel bad. That is why it feels better to cry sometimes. Did you know that?
This whole fucked up lifestyle of mine just started because I just wanted to have somebody to love me. I never really have felt loved by a guy like that... so then I got a girlfriend, and I really did feel loved. What the fuck ever, though. I don't need to explain myself. I just feel really confused, And I don't think I am stable enough in my mind to have any sexual or relationship contact with either sex. So fuck it, I won't. I am going asexual. I am going to be abstinent. For real. Maybe that will stop some of the dacay of my head.
I feel so fucking alone right now. I really wish I had my sister here. I really want to call her but she is with my mom and brother and neisha, and I don't want them all to hear me in this state. I miss Tabatha. She hasn't called me since she left so I don't even have her number.
Tears actually take out with them some of the chemicals that make you feel bad. That is why it feels better to cry sometimes. Did you know that?