I noticed last week that stargazing gives me an extra sense of peace on top of the usual trite "putting everything in perspective" one. a stab at putting it into words: "feeling at peace while staring into the vastness of the universe is pretty straightforward; feeling at peace with worldly concerns is always more complicated, but ultimately just ( Read more... )

a bunch of turmoil in my head has been settling over the past couple weeks about socially transitioning from undergrad culture to post-college life. this is a long-overdue post, but it's been a long-overdue sense of peace, too ( Read more... )

in keeping with my recent trend of deconstructing things i've previously taken for granted, it's time for me to talk about communication media ( Read more... )

i bet that part of my nervousness about the new living situation comes from some desire for its turning out perfectly to validate me, in absence of adequate self-confidence (socially) otherwise.

when i stayed with feis and slizyboy and valantrapitor in mountain view i was struck by how comfortable and "right" it felt; there was this intense longing to just stay there ( Read more... )

when invinciblehymn was in town a while ago she pointed out that the "standard" notion of housing, in which people live with just their immediate families, or even alone, is super flawed. humans are naturally meant to live in groups and communities, she argues, and so we ought to share our living space with people who have the same interests as us. she told me ( Read more... )

today i am feeling rambly! i don't need to have a central point in everything i post so there.

there is this sort of process of learning to be okay with doing whatever i feel like doing at the time instead of what i imagine i should do given history or experience or whatever. example: if i am super grateful to masqueradestar for inviting me along to a great sushi ( Read more... )

i notice that there are basically three types of things that get said during arguments (or, really, any kind of discussion about resolving a problem).

1. raw data. what is actually wrong? saying something of this class is generally irrefutable. "i feel neglected when you don't read me a bedtime story." starting a statement with something like "it seems ( Read more... )

- ability to focus during meditation, instead of wandering; it's still somewhat rubbish, but getting better. excited to know how strong i'll be at month's end.
- the relaxed peace after a fulfilling conversation
- playing the smile game, getting the most genuine response i've seen in a long time... twice three times. i may as well have exploded in ( Read more... )

masqueradestar was wondering what our first conversations two years ago must have been like, to reflect on how much we've each grown since then, so i dug up the log for her to peruse. some was pretty embarrassing, but it's thrilling to see the many moments that are still completely me things to say.

20:16 i owe you lots.
20:16 nah. :)
20:16 ffft.
20:16 poke me ( Read more... )

taking a long-awaited walk-with-music to campus the other day left me in a writing mood. unfortunately, while i meant to have a bit more structure around this, or maybe to embed a clever message, it did not work out, so instead it is just a sketch.

In a village not far from here there is a tradition called the Festival of Life. On the first day of ( Read more... )