I've been thinking about Dan a WHOLE lot lately. I promised myself I wouldn't look at his myspace/livejournal/etc because it would only bring me pain and make me miss him. Well, maybe last week or so, I looked at his myspace and then I couldn't get him off my mind after that. I had a dream last night that we started talking again .... if only. I've ( Read more... )

It's frustrating how Patrick tries to act like a boyfriend to me when we're not together. He never acted like this when we were together ... THIS was how I wanted him to be... but he wasn't ... not even a little bit. Now that we're broken up, he does everything for me, see's me all the time, tries to help me with everything ... he's so different. ( Read more... )

I was spending time with Patrick today and it made me think. I remember back in the day when we first got together... he was all weird and like didn't want anyone to know about me and I was all crushed, thinking he didn't really like me and I was like, SOOOOOO in like with him. I cried soo much! I went through so much crap ... it took forever for ( Read more... )

We had the biggest scare today. My grandpop kept talking about dying and stuff and freaking us out and then the nurse gave him a pill and it dropped his blood pressure to 80/30, which is so extremely low! He had to get air pushed into his veins so that his blood pressure could go back up. My family FREAKED out. The nurses didn't even seem to ( Read more... )

Life gets so boring when you're no longer in love ... or well, when you're lonely. :( I hate this loneliness. One second, I'm on top of the world, the next I'm crying and just sleeping all freaking day. Today was one of the bad days ... I spent most of the day sleeping or keeping my mind busy. I'm not used to this loneliness and crap. I'm used to ( Read more... )

I've cried every single day this week ( Read more... )

K, so, right now, I really should be doing my homework for my Human Growth and Development class. It's due tomorrow night at 11pm, but, I absolutely cannot concentrate at all cause I'm extremely excited ( Read more... )

Everything is so freaking confusing. I've cried every single day since Wednesday and no matter what happens, it won't stop. I break up with Patrick cause I thought it was the right thing to do and I cried all night and all day. I see him today and everything was perfect and now something else is making me cry. I can't get this love thing right. I ( Read more... )

Whenever he calls me, I get annoyed. He calls like a million times a day... he woke me up twice this morning! But when I sit down and think about the break up, I cry for hours and hours, hysterically. I'm not sure if I miss being with him or if I'm just really lonely without him. That's the main thing I'm trying to figure out ( Read more... )

I don't know what I've done ...

I miss him.