A penny for my thoughts :-P

[brok3n_inside]

I was spending time with Patrick today and it made me think. I remember back in the day when we first got together... he was all weird and like didn't want anyone to know about me and I was all crushed, thinking he didn't really like me and I was like, SOOOOOO in like with him. I cried soo much! I went through so much crap ... it took forever for him to admit that he loved me. All I freaking wanted was for him to say, "Lisa, I'm in love with you." I waited and waited and waited! Then he finally told me but I felt like he was lying and that I forced him to say it. He finally told me that he really meant it ... and it was just a little too late. We had our good times and our bad times but our bad times always shone through. All I wanted was real, true love.. and he took too long and put me through waaaay too much. I cuddle with him now and I think about how much HE loves ME and all I can think about is how I will never feel that way towards him again. If I would have told myself then that I would fall out of love with him in a year and some months, I would have never believed it. I think it's really crazy how quickly feelings can change. It makes me never wanna be in love again.

But. I wanna be in love.

I have a crush on a LJ friend.
I have a crush on a manager at Lowe's.
And I have a crush on a friend of a friend who is sort of my friend.