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Life gets so boring when you're no longer in love ... or well, when you're lonely. :( I hate this loneliness. One second, I'm on top of the world, the next I'm crying and just sleeping all freaking day. Today was one of the bad days ... I spent most of the day sleeping or keeping my mind busy. I'm not used to this loneliness and crap. I'm used to having someone here every single day, keeping me busy. Patrick has been coming over when I'm lonely... he's on his way here now. I just like to cuddle and cry with him.
I've been trying so hard to just move on and not even worry about males but I can't seem to do it. I just wanna be in love so badly! It's such a nice feeling. I'm still disappointed in Dan and what happened, but I'm getting over it ... I'm still wishing misery on him, though :-P While acting like I'm perfectly fine with just being his friend.
I am honestly getting more and more excited about going away to college now. I'm ready to make news friends and meet new people. I suck at meeting new people, but I guess I'll try. :\ Maybe I'll find the love of my life there. Who freaking knows.
Tomorrow I have to motivate myself to get my school work done. I can't even think about that crap anymore and I really need to freaking get it done! UGH. Is this semester over yet?! I honestly need to get outtttt of this small, stupid, freaking town!
I've been trying so hard to just move on and not even worry about males but I can't seem to do it. I just wanna be in love so badly! It's such a nice feeling. I'm still disappointed in Dan and what happened, but I'm getting over it ... I'm still wishing misery on him, though :-P While acting like I'm perfectly fine with just being his friend.
I am honestly getting more and more excited about going away to college now. I'm ready to make news friends and meet new people. I suck at meeting new people, but I guess I'll try. :\ Maybe I'll find the love of my life there. Who freaking knows.
Tomorrow I have to motivate myself to get my school work done. I can't even think about that crap anymore and I really need to freaking get it done! UGH. Is this semester over yet?! I honestly need to get outtttt of this small, stupid, freaking town!