little voice goes and goes

[brightair]

even in the sunlight
even in quiet comfort
full happiness

"don't get too comfortable
don't get too comfortable
don't get too comfortable"

i think this is the voice that drives me forwards the most.
keeps me doing, working, moving.
i think it is also the voice that might wear me into the ground
keeps me from believing them, him, anyone.
keeps me from fully exhaling
letting all of the air out of my chest
allowing my body one
small
moment of
complete
beautiful
emptiness
peace

"don't get too comfortable
don't get too comfortable
don't get too comfortable"

i lie awake in the night and listen to him breathe.

"don't get too comfortable
don't get too comfortable
don't get too comfortable"