I had some really emotional dreams last night, the kind that signal some kind of emotional strain, stress or issue that's overflowed into my subconscious. In this case I don't know that it's even anything I've yet become aware of consciously. I feel like I'm doing pretty good overall. I've been pretty even-tempered, a little lonely at times but ( Read more... )

I love how my family just assumes someone is keeping everyone else up to date on their plans... I mean, I don't technically NEED to know my brother's coming to town and when, but if we're all gonna talk about dad stuff I'd like some time to prepare myself.

MY SISTER IS INSANE ( Read more... )

I've had a couple conversations with my mom about my feelings concerning my eldest sister which have left me feeling rather more agitated than less. I feel she misunderstands, or thinks it's more of an issue than it is. My most recent experience of this was just yesterday. She had asked several weeks ago if I would be interested in coming along ( Read more... )

Got to thinking again tonight about my stupid brother and sister. wtf. Mostly it's katie, but I have this image in my head like they're in league together or something. I think I'm kind of crazy. But I also think they're completely irrational and selfish. So there ( Read more... )

My sister is having ANOTHER baby. I really don't know how I feel about that.

Had a pretty decent day today. Bit of trouble getting motivated to finish the workday, but emotionally I was pretty okay. One of the girls just got dumped, so I spent some of the afternoon concerned about her, but her mood seemed to improve and by the time she left was behaving like herself again. I am not like Halley, in whom our staff seem ( Read more... )

This week I have been everything that is depressed. I have felt no joy, been tired constantly, nearly cried for no reason, reacted in weird ways to normal situations, and just generally been negative and "down." Even after each night waking up "refreshed" my mood would sour, I would dread work, or whatever the next encounter was to be. I ( Read more... )

Cynthia (dad's fiance) came to Charlotte today. I have great affection for her because she was the Best Beloved of my dad, and because my impressions of her from visits have been so favorable. She is a loving person. She is trying hard to include us Snows in her life as a kind of extended family, as we would have been if she and dad had married ( Read more... )

Since my father died, his car has been in his fiance's driveway, which is really unfair to her, since she is trying to get used to his not being around anymore... So as a favor to her, I accepted a request by my eldest sister to go up to Asheville with her and drive dad's car back to Rock Hill, where it would stay until it was decided what to do ( Read more... )