I can only assume the vague on and off bouts of nausea I've been feeling for the last four days is coming from stress but I don't actually know what could be stressing me out this much. I didn't eat anything weird and I don't think I'm otherwise sick. It's fucking miserable to kind of feel like you want to vomit for hours at a time and not actually ( Read more... )

Date 1 of 2015 was brunch today with D (new). It ended in an hour but felt full, and I'm a little confused because he seemed into it enough. Maybe it was too platonic? We'll see if he comes back ( Read more... )

Started early. Investment in mental health is continuing, and it's a lovely perk that after all of the difficulty, at least it's relatively cheap.

I managed to run some errands and get a haircut before holing myself in for the rest of the day. Gym and planned coding lessons did not happen. Baby steps.

Maybe if I move from one box to another, it won't hurt anymore, because at least I can see that box. Instead of putting him away entirely. I don't know how to explain how calm I've been feeling.

I also wanted to post earlier this week but kept falling asleep - I'm making peace with my body. Nothing is going like I want it to but when I look at ( Read more... )

Less acid, more moisture/hydration.

Move AHA to every other day.
Abrasive exfoliant: oatmeal/lemon/honey.

I am going to try calorie counting again. I haven't stopped lifting. I don't understand why this is working so poorly, but I am still trying.

Goal is to consume ~1600 calories. This is more than I eat naturally.Goal 2 is to eat less throughout the day + less processed throughout the day ( Read more... )

I have insurance and a 401k and my own apartment.

I found a new optometrist, a new dentist, a new doctor... got a blood test, a physical, fillings, soon a crown, and today a pap smear and a breast exam. Soon I'll have everything in order, right?

I'm looking forward to not having appointments again for a while.

I tripped in a pothole and sprained my ankle (lightly, at least) over the weekend. Sunday was spent elevating my leg, crawling around, and hobbling to the pharmacy to buy a brace. Ironically I had just been to an urgent care clinic the night before for a cold. Apparently I also have allergies.

A great week in minor injury! I can walk a lot better

With a gym membership, it's frighteningly easy to create a routine for yourself. I feel like I've gotten much farther than I have because it's so easy to keep busy! In any case, staying on this is important ( Read more... )

I don't know how I got so bad at this. 2014, day 9 ( Read more... )