too soon...
So, there is another. As usual, I begin to overthink. It's too soon, I know... I should be single for longer... a week is not enough time. And realistically, I know that I will just attach all those feelings I had onto him; I don't want to be in a "rebound relationship", that's not how I operate. But it's hard not to fall hard when you're so vulnerable.
He makes me smile, though. He kissed away my tears. He calls me beautiful, sincerely, and knows I'll never believe him. He tells me he only wants to make me happy in any way he can (even if it is not being with him but another)... he says he'll never hurt me (lies, hurt and pain are inevitabilities) but when he says it I almost believe him. He says all the right things without knowing that they're the things I need to hear. It's like he picked me up when I fell down and is holding me as I learn to walk again.
And yet, it's too soon. I am only swept away because of the situation. Distance and time equal clarity... I must be more logical and take a step back.
But I still smile thinking of the next time I can be in his arms...
He makes me smile, though. He kissed away my tears. He calls me beautiful, sincerely, and knows I'll never believe him. He tells me he only wants to make me happy in any way he can (even if it is not being with him but another)... he says he'll never hurt me (lies, hurt and pain are inevitabilities) but when he says it I almost believe him. He says all the right things without knowing that they're the things I need to hear. It's like he picked me up when I fell down and is holding me as I learn to walk again.
And yet, it's too soon. I am only swept away because of the situation. Distance and time equal clarity... I must be more logical and take a step back.
But I still smile thinking of the next time I can be in his arms...