yuck.....i have been drinking since 9am. i had a lot to say. but typing is hard. good morning. good night.

okay....so i talked to shmegan....my phone log said i called her and lil last night around 3am.. i guess the megan scenario was a message....for stace.....telling him i loved him? do i still have feelings for the boy i wont let myself so much even think of????? haha....i am sure lil will have the answer. i dont know if i talked to her or not but ( Read more... )

wherever i am i'll always be more than just a memory....i'll take all the sadness that i left behind.....if i ever leave this world behind i'll take all the madness that you feel"-flogging molly ( Read more... )

can be so isolating. how surreal that i could have been so connected to the world and another person as i was a month ago Sunday....today i am so disconnected. i am having a hard time believing my own flesh is real. i met someone.....a long time ago today or yesterday....what does it matter when it never makes sense ( Read more... )

i am sick of trying to be the better person in every situation. in this case, i am too hurt. what he did was just to wrong. i think of all the fun we had, how sweet his little heart is and i want to forgive him. but he is wrong. what he did was so fucking cold hearted. one day he is my boy...the next he is gone forever...in someone elses arms. i am ( Read more... )

i am fucking sick. isaac came back last night. about 8pm with thad and a 12 pack. it has been 6 months since i have seen him so i expected a festive time. we painted our fingernails and listened to music....then went out for another 12 pack and a party ( Read more... )

i guess it has been a while since i wrote in this thing. i kind of lost all interest until i realized my girlfriends back home were all on to. so now i am focusing on this as my communication with my girls ( Read more... )

well, i am leaving for connecticut tomorrow morning. have to be at the airport by 5am. i am not happy about that. i did not sleep a lot last night and i am going to a show tonight.
i am so so tired...cant consentrate....

well, i am leaving for conneticut tomorrow morning. have to be at the airpot by 5am. i am not happy about that. i did not sleep a lot last night and i am going to a show tonight.
i am so so tired...cant consentrate....

havnt written on this thing in a while. really no need to i guess. i am not lonely like i used to be. but i do miss my girls back home on this thing so i thought i would drop in and see what was going on in the land of live journal. i am tired...a little hung....and about to go see stace at marcus's. bed time early tonight...hmmm that is all. good