i thought that i had finally arrived at a point in my life ( Read more... )

I remember now the sparks of touch ( Read more... )

I had a dream today feel that is has much signifigance. It happened this morning. Randal and I had a long night and didn't get to bed until 6Am and had to wake a few hours later. Luckily I was able to doze off again for a few hours and here is what transpired. Almost every close friend of mine I know was in one place. Many of the people were guys I ( Read more... )

Bob Schneider isn't coming to Asheville. Now my whole world has been thrown out of wack. I can't eat..or sleep. I break dishes on puprose and accidentally. How am I supposed to go on? Bob, I'll never forgive you for this-unless of course you rub my belly and ask me to very nicely...

She fell in love with a man from Texas ( Read more... )

I saw a couple of people from high school tonight who weren't real close friends but nice acquaintances. I experienced the usual "I can't relate to these people" feelings which have pretty much plagued my life. Maybe I am just too high strung, but really I can't help it. I get excited about everything, especially crunchy peanut butter. I'm serious ( Read more... )

I am running out of room on my hard drive ( Read more... )

I thought about god tonight. Which, I hate to admit, but I don't do much thinking about. It must stem from past Catholic fears which I have now dissowned. But sometimes, like tonight, I have this strong sense that I am truly watched out for, that there is an order and a path for my existence. I feel so lucky to have the friends that I do and the ( Read more... )

I need to make more friends. I only have four on this here live journal deal. I feel like I had a lot of friends at one point so where are they now? Randal left yesterday and I am refusing to let the reality sink in that he is going back to Spain 3 months and may never come back. This time I can't go with him. I have to stay in Asheville. Damn, ( Read more... )

The past few weeks I have been really out of sorts. I had some energy work done that felt really good at the time but I have been sort of toxic ever since. Plans have fallen apart and I am dwelling in this pessimisitic attitude because sometimes people just really suck. I have been pondering the whole process of what experience does to a person. ( Read more... )