He knows the meaning of success. His needs are more, so he gives less.

[billyduran]

So, what does it mean to be a man? The question really has come up a lot in my head since I turned thirty. Whether it just be the natural course of a mind at this age or the societal expectations around me, I cannot help but keep falling back to the matter and wondering if I measure up to the ideal in any form. Thoughts on the subject were only

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Re: But you won't need to read between the lines....

[umokay]

I was so thinking you were going to say a little gay in them, then out, then in again, then....well you know.

It was odd that I was thinking that about gay guys with me having a beard. I don't think that normally but there was something about facial hair that just made me think no guy was going to ever hit on me. I just don't picture the modern gay going for the Grizzly Adams or Obi Wan look. I don't know why really, my mind just wanders.

Problem with posting first then reading is that lately I'm all stoked to post then sit in front of the computer and end up not being able to string a sentence together. I need to start carrying a recorder around with me so I can dictate notes to myself. And, no, that didn't make me question my masculinity. You're a masculine. Sexual preferences is one of those things that doesn't really define a person to me. Hell, there are some sicko straights out there that are into all sorts of whack shit. What one does in the bedroom really doesn't have anything to do with who they are to me, it's all just fetishes on different levels. Being gay is the same as being straight, it's just your fetish to only want to be with men. That doesn't sound ccondicending does it? There's no good way for me to put it.

Having a kid didn't help me feel like a man at first because I was so scared shitless that I felt like a child. After a while I naturally got into the swing of it and realized that it helped me figure out what I think is the defining thing that makes a male a man, being responsible for the things you believe in. Whether it be a kid or a cause or a job or whatever, that seems to be what makes a someone with a cock a man. That's why different things define different men.

Paid assassin, do you have confidence and believe in what you are doing and how you do it?

Father, the same.

Business man. Biker. Chef. That's the lithmus test to me.

Belgian Chocolate

[billyduran]

You don't seem to have a problem forming sentences once you get going. Spelling and grammer? That's another monster.

So, even if I like someone to lay saran wrap over my face and then take a dump on it, you'll still consider me one of the guys?!? This is the kind of acceptance I needed during my formative high school years!

The word 'cock' freaks me out. Next time, say penis, schlong or tally-whacker.

You and I both had our little breakdowns around the same time too. Maybe we should be roommates like The Odd Couple.

The last part of your comment was as if you were speaking in tongues. So I'll just nod and agree.

It's not spaghetti, it's linguine.

[umokay]

See, I have no problem forming sentences but I get to a point where I'm talking it out and the words make sense coming out of my mouth but when it's down on paper or screen it makes no sense. As for grammar and spelling, I've given up with those. I know damn well there's no point in me correcting them. I need an editor to be by my side constantly.

Sure, you're one of the guys. I just don't need to know your love for Boston Steamers.

I counter your offer of penis, schlong and tall-whacker and demand instead of those we use the terms; wang, doodle or gizmo.

So which one of us would be the messy one or should I just ask Neil Simon for his input?

Thunderballs

[billyduran]

Well, in the end the only one that it really needs to make sense to is you. Then, post-humously people will think of it as some mysterious art form.

Just One Of The Guys?

How about wang-doodle? It has a Willy Wonka ring to it.

Maybe you should ask Neil Simon if he finds beards attractive.

Re: Thunderballs

[umokay]

Is Neil Simon gay?!?!?

And so be it, from now on I will refer to my tool as a wang-doodle or a wonka.

Re: Thunderballs

[billyduran]

I don't know if he is or not actually. But, then again, who isn't.... even just a little, right?

Let me know how it goes with the ladies using your new terminology.

Re: Thunderballs

[umokay]

I don't know. I picture Neil Simon as being 100% hetero.....then again, he does work in theater.

He probably is all about the wonka.

Re: Thunderballs

[billyduran]

I'll have to check my members list to see if Neil Simon is on it. If not, maybe I'll have a chance at another toaster oven!

Go wanka your wonka!

Re: Thunderballs

[billyduran]

And you know what touches me the most. No, not my local priest. The fact the someone noticed at least one of the James Bond lyrics I have been spreading throughout my subject lines all week.

You love me. You truly love me.

I was thinking about this on lunch. It's the little things.

Re: Thunderballs

[umokay]

Good cause this gives me a chance to comment about how I have a huge man-crush on Daniel Craig, because I was thinking about that after my last response and didn't want to comment about it out of the blue.

I so need to go see Casino Royale this week.

Re: Thunderballs

[billyduran]

LOL! As if segways were even needed around here.

That's what I have been reading all about. How Craig appeals visually both to men and women. He's like Austin Powers... women want him, men want to be him. Maybe you should blog about these strange feelings you're having...

Yea... for real. I am going to see it a third time. The movie makes me want to fuck a woman!

Re: Thunderballs

[umokay]

Oh they aren't strange feelings. It's just a man crush. You know, where you because he's so cool and smooth you just want to be like his sidekick and help him kill and spy and all that. There's nothing more then admiration there because, quite frankly, he's butt ugly. Seriously, have you considered the fact that if take away his hair, which it looks like mother nature is already doing, and look at him he is a spitting image of Dr. Evil, with smaller ears.

And besides, didn't I just babble on how I don't put too much emphasis on a person's sexual tendencies? Who said if I found him attractive the feelings would be strange. There's a lot about me I actually don't post about.

Though I would like to see your shining endorsement as a right next to two thumbs up in the commercials for the movie.

Dance into the fire...

[billyduran]

But, you see, once you see him totally emerged in the Bond role any physical ugliness you thought was there before will disappear. He just doesn't photograph well.

You can babble on all you want, it's not like I am really listening.

Huh? What?