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i feel lost, i;m swamped with thoughts everythings so disjointed and confused. i dont know wghat i;m thibnking. i;m questioning myself. just want to cry, want to be held. i just dont know anything anymore, i dont trust my own toughts. i dont trust my conciousdnes. i'm getting paranoid, i justr want to fall into my bed and let it all go. things keep ( Read more... )

Ok I know this whole entry is pointless. i know the situiation w8ith andy, its over and done with, hes a shit head and i can do a hell of a lot better without him ion my life, he is dishonest and holds gveryt few properties and characteristics that i deem nessescary in a person esp in a lover. yet i still find myself sitting here and missibng him, ( Read more... )