lost within myself
i feel lost, i;m swamped with thoughts everythings so disjointed and confused. i dont know wghat i;m thibnking. i;m questioning myself. just want to cry, want to be held. i just dont know anything anymore, i dont trust my own toughts. i dont trust my conciousdnes. i'm getting paranoid, i justr want to fall into my bed and let it all go. things keep going numb and so empty. sometimes i think i;m just a shell. sometimes i wonder oif i;m a person at all. i dont knw what i;m thinking. i dont kniow where this is going. i have a psych assessment on friday morning, we'll see what that turns up. i just dont even know what to say them.