"If you want to have any money you'll have to stop using that bad language. How are things? You seem to be having a bad day. Do your friends use the same bad language? How do they afford to live in an apartment in Londin when they're in collage? 
Does Emma and Clara get their rent paid by their daddy or mommy?
I don't understand that Clara doesn't ( Read more... )

I woke up around 4 PM today. Insanity.
Tonight we're off to Stanstedt Airport and then tomorrow morning at 6 we're off to Stockholm, Sweden.
Cut myself again this morning.
Hanna and Salle spoke to me on messenger.
Salle broke up with his girlfriend Astrid a month ago cause she cheated on him, because he wasn't giving her enough attention.
I had no idea ( Read more... )

I'm graduating tomorrow!

Cause I'm so fucking awesome!

Wish me luck <3

I was happy today.
And I cried on the bus to school.
Do you know how it feels like forcing yourself to take the next breath? I do.
I've done that all day today.
Hung out with Amanda this afternoon and she helped me forget some worries of mine.
It's her 18th birthday and we're going out drinking on thursday. And saturday. Fun fun fun!
Spend the afternoon ( Read more... )

What's happend lately:
* Yesterday I first went to Gothenburg, met up with Jennika, Malin and Martin  We went around the city, then Martin and Malin went to see Miss Li, and Jennika and I went with the twins and Jokke and his friend Amanda to Café Vanilj where we spent an hour or two. Then I said my last goodbyes to Jennika (before she went to ( Read more... )

Now on the bus
Nearly touching this dirty retreat
Falling out 6th and powell a dead sweat in my teeth
Gonna walk walk walk
Four more blocks plus one in my break
Down downstairs to the man
He's gonna make it all ok
I can't beat myself
I can't beat myself
And I don't want to talk
I'm taking the cure so I can be quiet
Whenever I want
So leave me alone
You ought to ( Read more... )

Tonight I cried and shook myself to sleep. No fun.
Soon I'm off to Kungsbacka to meet Amanda and go to Karma Café for a few hours. Then I'm off to Sticky Fingers to party with Jennika and Martin and after that I'm partying with my dear classmates Johanna, Rebecca and maybe Malin aswell. Fun.
I miss the Arvikafestival! I had so much fun there!

So. Since my heart isn't totally cold I am sad today. Actually I've felt like crap (partly cause I have a really sore troat and an annoying cough, and you know the other reason) all day today. Slept four hours this evening. Have cried, indeed, because of some of the things she said.
Today I met up with Jennika and the twins (Jessica and Frida) in ( Read more... )

I'm so weak. Seriously. Five minutes ago I broke and started crying. Guess what caused it?
Those of you who guessed "your mother" were absolutely right.
 I come home about an hour ago from Gothenburg (school and interviewing a police officer) and mom was here. She'd said earlier that the reason she couldn't come to us and celebrate yesterday was ( Read more... )

I've been having this constant lump in my troat all day. I don't know what to do. I think I'm gonna tell the school nurse that I want anti-depressive pills. I think I can't take it anymore. I wanna cry all the time. And I should be happy. I can't.