I'm a mess
Wednesday night, Jack was gone from 2/3 am until about 4pm yesterday. He was home for supper, slept for a couple of hours, held Charlotte while I bathed Julia, then went back to work just after 9 p.m. I'm hoping he's home by 9 this morning :-/
Last night when I took Charlotte to bed, she nursed and she was breathing weird, kind of panting through her nose. She would stop for a few minutes and then start doing it again. I put my hand on her chest and her heart was really pounding. When she finally relaxed and started falling asleep, I was afraid to go to sleep myself! I stared at her for a long time, watching her tummy go up and down as she breathed, and when her breathing got really shallow as she slept deeply, I put my hand on her chest and tummy, and I eventually fell asleep. I slept for an hour or so and when I woke up, I was afraid to look at her. I did the co-sleeping mental check - no fluffy blankets near her face, she's not overheated, no pillows near her head, sleeping on her back.... Finally I touched her lips and she stirred, so I relaxed and went back to sleep.
This morning, I bent over to turn the water on at the sink and I had a shooting pain go across my back, down my legs and it made my knees buckle. If I hadn't grabbed hold of the sink, I would still be on the floor. I slowly and carefully walked to the kitchen, took some advil and phoned Jack at work. I've asked Kim to help me get Julia ready for school, I ate some toast and I'm headed back to bed. I feel dizzy, my lower back hurts even when I'm still, and I am moving very carefully. Charlotte should be easy this morning, maybe she'll nurse and go back to sleep until Jack gets home.
I have a vehicle for part of today, I'm supposed to take Julia to see her counsellor this afternoon, and tomorrow I'm supposed to make a 4 hour drive to attend a 6 hour midwifery meeting, then take Julia and Charlotte to see Santa.... and now I can barely walk. Figures. I wonder if my chiropractor can work magic?
Last night when I took Charlotte to bed, she nursed and she was breathing weird, kind of panting through her nose. She would stop for a few minutes and then start doing it again. I put my hand on her chest and her heart was really pounding. When she finally relaxed and started falling asleep, I was afraid to go to sleep myself! I stared at her for a long time, watching her tummy go up and down as she breathed, and when her breathing got really shallow as she slept deeply, I put my hand on her chest and tummy, and I eventually fell asleep. I slept for an hour or so and when I woke up, I was afraid to look at her. I did the co-sleeping mental check - no fluffy blankets near her face, she's not overheated, no pillows near her head, sleeping on her back.... Finally I touched her lips and she stirred, so I relaxed and went back to sleep.
This morning, I bent over to turn the water on at the sink and I had a shooting pain go across my back, down my legs and it made my knees buckle. If I hadn't grabbed hold of the sink, I would still be on the floor. I slowly and carefully walked to the kitchen, took some advil and phoned Jack at work. I've asked Kim to help me get Julia ready for school, I ate some toast and I'm headed back to bed. I feel dizzy, my lower back hurts even when I'm still, and I am moving very carefully. Charlotte should be easy this morning, maybe she'll nurse and go back to sleep until Jack gets home.
I have a vehicle for part of today, I'm supposed to take Julia to see her counsellor this afternoon, and tomorrow I'm supposed to make a 4 hour drive to attend a 6 hour midwifery meeting, then take Julia and Charlotte to see Santa.... and now I can barely walk. Figures. I wonder if my chiropractor can work magic?