I’ve made it this far, which seems like a minor miracle to me. I had the surgery for the last one at 6 and ½ weeks. Last Friday I woke up with shoulder and neck pain on my left side. This occasionally happens on my right side and subsides within a few days, but never once have I had this pain on the left side. Shoulder pain is one of the symptoms ( Read more... )

As in Fertile Myrtle, because I’m pregnant again. First a quick recap of May ( Read more... )

This weekend was exactly what I needed right now. Friday night I spent a pleasant evening imbibing alcohol and eating Chinese food and salad with my husband. I had my nose in a Sherrilyn Kenyon book (I know, I know), while Joel watched TV. We got up too bright and early in the morning (slightly hungover) to spend oodles of time and money getting ( Read more... )

Even though I am still working through and accepting the loss of my pregnancy and my tube, today seems to better and more balanced. This may be in part because I am less sick, it’s Friday and it’s not raining. I also received some very good advice after my post. I did have some realizations last night that were quite useful and telling. Wednesday, ( Read more... )

On finding what it takes to finally make me break down and all those other darker emotions that I haven’t expressed since my emergency surgery and pregnancy termination. In a month’s time I have had an emergency surgery/ending of my pregnancy and two colds. I rarely get sick, so to have two colds in one month’s time is extremely odd for me. I ( Read more... )

I’ve found that when life throws you a curveball, it can actually work out to be better for you, in the long run. The curveball in this case is that I am no longer pregnant. On Saturday, the spotting that I had been having during red and increased in volume, and I was curled up in a ball on the floor intermittently crying because of the pain on my ( Read more... )

Today, at 6 weeks, I am feeling much better. Thanks to all those who send positive energy and vibes. It definitely helped. I am thinking positive thoughts and not letting the spotting make me too nervous. Or the cramping - which is rather like mild menstrual cramps. I'm jealous of the women who get these for regular menstrual cramps ( Read more... )

Here I sit, 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Yep, pregnant, but not out of the woods yet. It feels like nothing has changed, that I might have imagined those two little pink lines (three times, because you know two tests are just not scientifically verifiable ( Read more... )

Took another step today and made a preconception counseling appointment with a local midwifery office. The appointment is one week from Friday. I am not entirely sure what to expect and I will think about questions to ask over the next two weeks. Mostly at the moment, I would like to know about things I can do to minimize the chance of having a ( Read more... )