so, i was thinking.. maybe i should just leave my thoughts of you alone. leave you alone. let you do your ting. and maybe i can do mine right. maybe im just afraid of anything else out there.. thats why i hang on to you. but please. if you really dont want me around just let me be. por favor... te amo con todo mi corazon. i do. so dont keep me ( Read more... )

so, ive come to the conclusion that i should just appreciate what have right now, instead of always being not content and working for more.. its good to strive for more and to better things, but at the same time one needs to stop and smell the flowers once and a while.
wow.. life, i swear.

also it helps prevent unnecessary problems.

live and

within the last few months, ive come to the moment in my life where i finally understand. maybe not completely, but a lot of things are clear to me now ( Read more... )

It's said simply. Just like that. Here it goes again... The weekly ritual.

Once again. There's no one to talk to. And the one that I'm supposed to be able to talk to lied to me. How nice. Why? Why are you doing this to me. Please don't lie to me. Stop cheating on me. Don't say that you aren't. Because you are. Don't play me a fool. It may be mild but its still not a good thing in my eyes. Don't say its cuz I'm thinking it ( Read more... )

I feel like this is all going down hill. Maybe we shouldn't try to mend this. Maybe this is all wrong. Maybe we aren't meant to be. We are just so used to each other that the change would be death. All I feel is sadness. Like this is all my fault. I guess it all is. It actually is all me. Maybe its supposed to be like ive seen since young. I'm ( Read more... )

Sometimes I regret my decision.. Cuz I did it more for myself. But I end up losing anyways. Now it seems different. Like we've grown apart. We spend less time together as it is. Now even more because I made it so. Along with just tired of being hurt. Everything gets to me. Or I don't let it get to me but I juSt don't really care anymore. I shouldn' ( Read more... )

Sometimes I catch myself thinking of those things that hurt. I guess cuz I haven't gotten over it yet. And then I wonder if I should've stop all this. Theni wouldn't have it bugging me now. Not so much anyway. Its so upsetting. And maybe if things got better then I wouldn't be reminded of the worst. He doesn't get it though. As much as I think he ( Read more... )

I don't even inserstand what I did. I just couldn't sleep. And I'm getting hungry. But UK just can't get myself to eat anything. I need to sleep. And now this. When I need it more I don't get it. I didn't even do anythingn . I hate my life. I hate it. I just want to die. I can't sleep. And I need to. Fuck everything.

I'm an idiot. I'm so stupid. i have to stop being like this. Because all that really happens is I get hurt. I always seem to get hurt especially when I do things for him. Its so stupid. He doesn't get it. He never has. He just doesn't get it. What am I doing to myself? I'm just dying on the inside. When I think I'm healing the same damn thing ( Read more... )