i am currently on shift at camas and ready to curl up close my eyes and pass out. we close in one hour but tonight is the anarchist reading circle so i'm hanging-out for that which generally doesn't end until 10pm even though we attempt for 9:30pm. the quality of my sleep has been lacking as of late. i'm looking forward to being in a bed and i'm ( Read more... )

today i woke-up at 11am and gave myself to meditation. i was hoping to have it give me some added energy as my fatigue has been relatively acute as of late, but no luck... i fell asleep curled up on the floor with scooter once again around noon and didn't wake-up until 2pm. my body is saying something to me... much much sleep is currently necessary ( Read more... )

i've been awake only for a few hours now - last night stretched out into today and i didn't close my eyes until after 7am. i slept all day and allowed myself. jake didn't have it so sweet and had to go to work on zero hours and that's something that still impresses me, something i can't possibly do (without falling asleep in the midst of it all). ( Read more... )

i suppose it's seasonal... i'm ready to hibernate. to avoid phantom feelings of being far too small & delicate for this world. and the other part is homesickness - i fear that maybe my relationship with my family is too close, or something, because i doubt adjusting to being unable to see them whenever i want is meant to be this hard... i don't ( Read more... )

mm... i am just waking-up, as i have been for the past couple of hours, languishing in bed all soft & naked & safe. jake left for work and i have been breathing deep, listening to music, and just generally moving in very minimal ways. today i have little in way of plans... i'd like to do some grocery shopping, and if i can find a nearby walk-in ( Read more... )

i'm feeling better about all things than i've felt in a while. today is my day off which very nearly collided with reality when carol (my boss) asked if i could come in to work today. thank goddess for my valid excuse of needing to fast & get blood work done; thursdays have become mighty sacred to me, and i'm appalled at the thought of giving them ( Read more... )

i'm feeling uprooted today; upset. i'm not sure where the sensation came from but it's floated downward and has nestled in my belly. i have a rich evening stretching out before me to do what i please with... but i'm already restless, knowing i have a 6hr shift tomorrow and such a busy week. tuesday i'll get some answers (and ask more questions) ( Read more... )

i am utterly exhausted, but i wanted to update because the most bizarre happenings keep occurring ( Read more... )

today is my day off, my only day off this week... i'm trying to enjoy it best i can. i slept in ridiculously late and had a bath. i've been re-reading douglas coupland's generation x, which fills me up with all sorts of differing levels of nostalgia. the book was gifted to me years ago by korbin back in the days when i was still chelsea and they ( Read more... )

yesterday/today has been just heavenly... just what i was wanting in a day off. bryan & i spent hours at his place watching cartoons and eating excellent vegan pizza. i passed out halfway through the shining at around 1am. we crawled our way downstairs and into his huge cozy bed where we slept until 11am, woke up and read for a while (i'm devouring ( Read more... )