Shaun visited this past weekend. It was sweaty old times, the city packed in with gays for the National Equality March, and we danced up on boxes like we used to do, only this time I had the next day off to recover. England even joined us, and it was a party, and it was a flashback to somethng I've already lived out.

At the wedding, I couldn't ( Read more... )

dinner with shaun. his time here is winding down. tentative plans to have him snatch me up from Vegas in January and roll down to the Grand Canyon. would be nice to finally see it from the precipice. nothing sounds better right now.

it got so cold so fast.

It was a good couple of weeks. Taking strides to improve things. I got a little sick at the end of this past one, but blame it on the sudden plunge in temperature and a need to spend a weekend hibernating in the house.

Went and saw Miss Rachael Yamagata again on Tuesday night. Got to speak with her for a few after the show. We laughed a little bit ( Read more... )

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We're upstairs at the Black Cat. Shaun is by my side and Dean has wandered off to get drunk. My shoes are already stuck to the floor, but the crowd is thin and it's early enough to cruise the merch table for another cute band t-shirt or an art poster I probably won't hang in my new place.

I stand over the table, fingering buttons I'm sure will end ( Read more... )

dancing barefoot in a fredericksburg bar, hopping around elated to "portions for foxes." seriously, who plays rilo kiley in the club, and can i please have at least one of their children?

it was an unexpected saturday evening, doing shoulder stands and plow poses on the sidewalk, laughing harder than i have in a long while. it made my week. ( Read more... )

Spent the sunny Sunday afternoon in Shaun's backyard playing with his kitten Icarus and the neighbors' pup while his family barbecued and rocked out. Shaun's dad invited over some surprise guests, the new gay neighbors, who brought with them a little vitriol, a lot of diva, and a too-close-for-comfort example of gay divorce. These guys live in the ( Read more... )

i believe the stars line up sometimes. life tells you when change is coming for you. last night i sat in my car with one of the gentlemen i'm closest to here in VA (whether he knows it or not) and listened to him tell me how much he wants to move away.

it's sad, but he's certainly not the first to sit me down and have that conversation. i know it's ( Read more... )

It's a time of uncertainty, but I am happy and okay. I'd love for you to know the details.

"If we let them have their way, soon we'll have to take black people off the TV," he tells me, looking slightly like a stereotypical pedophile from the 1970s, but dressed up so his fellow commissioners won't know. I see his handle bar mustache, and he's not ( Read more... )

We sit on Chaz's floor, holding a spontaneous Socratic seminar about preserving relationships. About pain thresholds. Three similar experiences: Love, loss. Unrequited love, loss. Never loved at all, never willing to lose. Do the bad boys not know what's good for them or do the good boys not know how to do better? I want to tell them everything, to ( Read more... )