A Quick Entry for the Last Ten Min in Brooklyn
I love Brooklyn. I miss it. I miss life here. I'll miss Anetta and working in her amazing apartment with the spa-electronica music.
I've been working so hard, and I'm afraid I'm going to have to work much harder and figure out how to work much more efficiently. I've got three demanding clients, and my mind feels fried. I don't know how to work 50-60 hours a week like this. People expect me to use my weekends for them and to work all hours of the night. I like the people I'm working with, and everything feels positive, as long as I do what I'm supposed to. And the funny thing is that I can work this hard, and the most I'll be making is 48k a year, before taxes. With my brain fried and with no time to enjoy life.
I miss Doron, and we've had some super stressful times, but we're ready for it to stop, I think. We need to learn how to relax and let go and make life as beautiful as possible. I'm glad I miss him. It tells me I'm still in this. Even though he talked to his mother about me, and I believe she said we should break up so that he can put himself first (which is complete bullshit because all we do is put him first). I just want things to be okay or not okay. But I finally understand how much he loves me. I think I finally get it because he misses me THAT much. He's been a wreck without me there.
I just want to be home with him. I want things to be good, and I want to be home with him. I want home to be here, but that'll have to wait until he graduates. I'm taking him with me when I come back in July.
Today, I'm leaving Anetta and my beloved Williamsburg to join Alex in Hoboken. It'll be my first time in Hoboken, and I'm excited to see what it's like. But, so it's goodbye to Williamsburg, for now.
I just want to stop being this stressed out. Something has to change or give.
I've been working so hard, and I'm afraid I'm going to have to work much harder and figure out how to work much more efficiently. I've got three demanding clients, and my mind feels fried. I don't know how to work 50-60 hours a week like this. People expect me to use my weekends for them and to work all hours of the night. I like the people I'm working with, and everything feels positive, as long as I do what I'm supposed to. And the funny thing is that I can work this hard, and the most I'll be making is 48k a year, before taxes. With my brain fried and with no time to enjoy life.
I miss Doron, and we've had some super stressful times, but we're ready for it to stop, I think. We need to learn how to relax and let go and make life as beautiful as possible. I'm glad I miss him. It tells me I'm still in this. Even though he talked to his mother about me, and I believe she said we should break up so that he can put himself first (which is complete bullshit because all we do is put him first). I just want things to be okay or not okay. But I finally understand how much he loves me. I think I finally get it because he misses me THAT much. He's been a wreck without me there.
I just want to be home with him. I want things to be good, and I want to be home with him. I want home to be here, but that'll have to wait until he graduates. I'm taking him with me when I come back in July.
Today, I'm leaving Anetta and my beloved Williamsburg to join Alex in Hoboken. It'll be my first time in Hoboken, and I'm excited to see what it's like. But, so it's goodbye to Williamsburg, for now.
I just want to stop being this stressed out. Something has to change or give.