Beautiful
I'm starting to feel that I'm beautiful. I haven't really had this feeling consistently before. It feels less hopeless. It feels more confident. It feels less desperate and more adventurous.
I'm going dancing tonight with Sari and Denise. I've been trying not to see Sari, and I especially do not want to see Denise, but we'll see how it goes. I am constantly in this position. I don't even want to describe it right now.
I don't know when I'll have the opportunity to write my piece before tomorrow night. Luckily, I began my outline yesterday, and it was coming along alright. I suppose I'll try and get a lot done at work, and then I'll work on it tomorrow morning and after lunch with Robin's father.
I had dinner with Alex last night, and it was really nice. She's become a very good friend, and I'm grateful to have someone around who isn't constantly checking her phone or treating things I say with scrutiny, as if she didn't know who I am. I'm glad I've hung onto her, even if we haven't been so close at times-actually, she's hung onto me more, which is nice. She didn't even mind that I made and brought my own dressing to the restaurant last night; she told me I was being healthy, and that she was impressed. So encouraging.
I made a dentist appointment for a cleaning on the 29th, and I'm all nervous about it. I don't think my teeth are in great shape, since I've done so much grinding. I don't know if a cleaning is the same as a checkup. I think it is. I'll ask.
I need to get back on a normal sleep schedule and drink less. Tonight I'll be sleep deprived again, but hopefully I can at least avoid drinking like a banchee. Maybe...probably not. I will try to avoid beer, at least?
I'm going dancing tonight with Sari and Denise. I've been trying not to see Sari, and I especially do not want to see Denise, but we'll see how it goes. I am constantly in this position. I don't even want to describe it right now.
I don't know when I'll have the opportunity to write my piece before tomorrow night. Luckily, I began my outline yesterday, and it was coming along alright. I suppose I'll try and get a lot done at work, and then I'll work on it tomorrow morning and after lunch with Robin's father.
I had dinner with Alex last night, and it was really nice. She's become a very good friend, and I'm grateful to have someone around who isn't constantly checking her phone or treating things I say with scrutiny, as if she didn't know who I am. I'm glad I've hung onto her, even if we haven't been so close at times-actually, she's hung onto me more, which is nice. She didn't even mind that I made and brought my own dressing to the restaurant last night; she told me I was being healthy, and that she was impressed. So encouraging.
I made a dentist appointment for a cleaning on the 29th, and I'm all nervous about it. I don't think my teeth are in great shape, since I've done so much grinding. I don't know if a cleaning is the same as a checkup. I think it is. I'll ask.
I need to get back on a normal sleep schedule and drink less. Tonight I'll be sleep deprived again, but hopefully I can at least avoid drinking like a banchee. Maybe...probably not. I will try to avoid beer, at least?