Little by little, quietly and somewhat subconsciously, my spending time with E has chipped away at the morsel of doubt that lodged itself in my mind right from the start; and now it has almost completely given way to acceptance, an ordinary happiness, a tentative hope. I knew that my feelings were growing when I asked him to stay last Sunday after ( Read more... )

English Lit Academic made a nice risotto which was (I admit - surprisingly) tasty. He liked the Riesling (?) that I bought from the Wine Merchant, which was selected by this guy whom he's encountered before who's rude and unfriendly. I found him unfriendly too, so we must've been talking about the same guy ( Read more... )

It is impossible to read a John Banville novel without some writing device of sort in one hand - that is, if one were the kind of reader who underlines and/or highlights particularly impressive passages or sentences. They can be impressive in different ways; for me, they are impressive stylistically always, and are usually impressive in stating ( Read more... )

Sometimes - like last night after I told Bruno that I have type 1 genital herpes - I wonder if my bracing myself for hurt and disappointment when I prepare to disclose to a new guy isn't a result of American Mark's reaction to my knee-jerk disclosure in his apartment, when he was clearly looking to get lucky and I stopped him with my disclosure. ( Read more... )

This is another entry about my sad love life. It seems that there is nothing much going on these days and that I spend my days bitching about politics and missing G. If that is the impression that my entries have created, this impression is absolutely correct ( Read more... )

I clicked on this link from a friend's blog and I would like to highlight the following paragraph:

"Singapore, he said, is the perfect actualisation of the ancient Chinese political philosophy, Legalism, which emphasises the rule of law."

The very first thought that came to mind when I read that rubbish Straits Times article was not Li Ao is so ( Read more... )

I haven't yet seen it for myself but my mom told me that the pro-PAP Straits Times has a story about an opposition election candidate's brief run-in with the law splashed across its front page.

It was apparently some story about the candidate running a red light, getting caught and being fined $900.

Um. Okay.

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If you ask me, the obvious media bias ( Read more... )

I think I will never have a close friend close friend anytime between now and the day that I die and I'm more or less resigned to that fate. Being with people is taxing and stressful; I'm too wary of myself, too conscious of what to say; I can't "be myself" because I don't know who that is; and to be perfectly honest, the only time I feel truly at ( Read more... )

At the library. I'm paying two dollars for an hour of Internet access. Wow. Been forever since I last got online, and I tell you, the past week and a few days have been agonising. I got the CPU back but it couldn't work. Mom's very pissed off.

I'd do proper updates once my computer at home is fixed. But since today is the last day of the World Cup, ( Read more... )

I have thought about this entry and I've decided I'm going to withhold all the details of today's events and just say that today was great and unforgettable. I did a lot of crazy things, with Gen, and I've never felt more comfortable with him than I did today.

Now that I know I have the power to make him come, I feel different, somewhat. Less of who ( Read more... )