Things haven't always gone my way before; it's not like this is unusual.  Life isn't fair; things happen for a reason; cliches cliches.  But I don't understand how I can want something SO bad and I think I deserve and am qualified for and not get what I want.  I think I worked hard for it.  I'm working ridiculously hard trying to figure out what to ( Read more... )

I didn't get it.  What I've been hoping for for a year now.  I don't want to talk about it, at least not yet.  Let me watch my Grey's Anatomy and West Wing in peace please.

I feel bad.  I've been in this situation before, but in the opposite, and I did what I know I had to do.  But I still feel bad, even though it's how I feel.  Sorry!

Yes, I know, I will update actually later, but I just got some horrible news! Mr. Adkins, my old band director, is finally retiring this year, and not just retiring, but moving back to New Mexico! It is so saddening and I don't care if I don't go to that school, that was like my last connection there and I loved going back and talking to him. Oh ( Read more... )

So I really have nothing to do right now, so why not update ( Read more... )