& oh, so tired of being sick..

i'm so tired of guys.

i'm sick & tired of falling for boys who only have intentions of getting in my pants.

& i'm horribly tired of falling for boys that i have no chance with at all.

i'm tired of being denied by past "flings," because i'm a fat girl.

& i'm awfully tired of being lonely.

i'm fucking tired of sweet talkers.

& ( Read more... )

i've realized who i want & it's you, you, you.

you're my andrew largeman.. let me be your sam.

 i mean absolutely nothing to him.. i'm just some fat girl he pierces.

i would do anything for a second glance.. maybe even a chance.

doubtful.. extremely doubtful.

he's too good for me.. i knew that from the start.

 of course right before i leave i would discover something to ponder on & be upset about all fucking week ( Read more... )

something hit me last night & i've been pretty down ever since..

i wish i was leaving for the beach tomorrow instead of the 2nd.. ugh.

that shall be a much needed vacation away from this small town.

i have a huge crush on this guy chase..

i barely know him.. & it's so unlike me to find someone that interesting, but he's fucking adorable.. has some ( Read more... )

so i was awoken this morning by cari walking in my backdoor, haha..

we went & got my little sister's hair cut & ate at shoney's..

which just so happened to be the most disgusting/revolting thing that i've ever done..

20 bucks for 2 people to eat undrained spaghetti noodles, hamburgers dripping grease, & watery macaroni & cheese.

ugh.. a complete waste ( Read more... )

 i pretty much go for months without updating this thing..

no one gets on livejournal anymore..

so i've decided to kinda use this thing just for venting i guess..

i'm 19 now.. i feel no different..

i've grown up a lot though.. surprisingly.

i'm not the party girl i used to be.

once again, i'm crushin' on a new boy.. & once again, i doubt it will happen ( Read more... )

nothing cool has really happened..

the jarod thing didn't work out, which doesn't really bother me..

ummm.. i have re-developed a crush that i had on a boy all through high school.. ugh..

& once again, i'm not good enough.

he's amazing.. every time he kisses me it's the the first time all over again.. gahhh.. he's great..

but anyway.. ummm.. stopped ( Read more... )

so i met a pretty awesome guy..

we're supposed to hang out tonight..

he gives me butterflies & that's weird because i haven't had them in foreverrrrr..

but i like it..

he's uber cute..

i like that also..

but anyway..

my day went as follows:

was awoken by megan and lisa..

they called to talk about absolutely nothing and it pissed me off.. well.. because i ( Read more... )

so i think i'm going to update this thing regularly maybe??

ehhhh.. anyway..

today:

i woke up at like 4..

talked to leigh for a bit..

dyed my hair.. no more aqua.. :]

ate chick filet..

went to wal-mart with cari..

bought a gold fish.. named him goop.. he's the kind with the goopy stuff around his face.. i mean.. kinda self explanatory..

got home around ( Read more... )