Yeah, I know no one looks at this thing, facebook is out. But you know what fuck facebook. Yes, I'm just in one of those moods. I'm working straight thirds at Gilsters now and I'm bitchy and crabby all the time and poor Zach and Chloe get the short end of the stick, but it's a job and it's money so what are you going to do ( Read more... )

I know no one reads this stupid thing anymore and why would they, myspace is out there. I'm prolly over reacting but to me it's there and it's real, thing is Jason is at one of his friend's house and I'm here by myself and I hate it. I totally hate it. I think I've completely lost myself. I don't even know who I am without him and It's sad. I know ( Read more... )

I hate arguements but then again who likes them? I just got done arguing with Jason and it was just a no win situation. I always bitch about him not spending enough time with me and he's always saying I need to find something to do with my time instead of being up his ass 24/7 but I can't help it. He was in prison for over a year and I'm still ( Read more... )

I've been sick now for like 4 days now and it's really starting to get to me. i hate being sick and I hate not being able to do things, simple things like washing dishes because I'm too weak to stand that long. my house is a wreck and I'm an emotional mess. Every little thing is making me cry, from Jason not being nice enough to me, to my dad not ( Read more... )

I'm not sad, not depressed, or anything else, I'm just blah. I think I'm stuck in a rut or i'm in denial. I expected "grown up" life to be so much more exciting and it's not. I don't drink anymore and I guess that's the reason why. It's depressing to think that I've based all my most happiest memories on alcohol or drugs and I can't really remember ( Read more... )

I feel so friendless. I just miss new york and my old life. (well most of my old life minus the drama ( Read more... )

yes, well, here's some updates since the last time i posted which was like a bazillion years ago ( Read more... )

hello my fellow lj friends, yes i have the internet. Thank God AND...i have aim again, so please im me, same sn- MestGirlR I miss my friends HORRIBLY, so let me know how all you guys are,(if i'm still even on your guy's buddy list :( ) i want to be involved with your lives again. Well, I don't have time to really up-date on my life because i have ( Read more... )

so, yes, I've moved once again. That's three times in 9 months. I swear I'm just gonna keep everything in boxes. I'm soo sick of packing, unloading, setting my shit up then doing it all over again. Nothing much has happened, like always. I swear Illinios is an abyss of hopelessness.  It really makes me wonder what i was thinking when I moved here, ( Read more... )

1. "My roommate once.....never had one ( Read more... )