Sometimes I think it is better to just be out of the loop.  Since I'm not very socially active I don't have to deal with all the "talking" and things that goes on.  I'm not participatory in any of the other "business" or "gossip" that may be floating around about people "I" know or don't know.  I'm sure that the friend this involves knows of which ( Read more... )

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I hadn't really been into a retail establishment since before Christmas.  And even then, it was only the grocery store or the gas station.  So I wasn't quite prepared for seeing Valentine's day crap out already.  I mean, COME ON!  It isn't even January.  *blargh*

Apparently the stupid people are still out and about post-holiday.  I thought I was ( Read more... )

Last night was not a good night.  I allowed myself to back slide on personal progress in the name of anxiety and anxiousness.  I allowed it to cloud my judgment which brought me to more suffering and hurt.  I greeted the morning to find it was a physical reflection of my mood, the depths of my psyche--clouded, gray, dark, muted.  I forced myself ( Read more... )

So, I went to the Dermotologist yesterday.  She consulted with another physician.  Good news?  Still no infection.  Bad news?  It looks like it is growing back.  They are pretty sure it is a pyogenic granuloma.  They are usually non-cancerous but sometimes cancer tumors can mimic pyogenic granuloma's.  :/  Worse news?  I now am going to have to see ( Read more... )

I've been very quiet.  I've had a lot spinning around in my mind and spirit and I just haven't been able to figure it all out myself, let alone express it to anyone else (aka here).  I'm not sure what is going on with me and I find I don't like the this feeling of uncertainty and confusion in regard to how I'm feeling (physically, emotionally, ( Read more... )

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I just created my first "real" sigil.  I had done one in my mind before but not actually sat down and drawn one.  My ability to make fresh, clean lines is lacking so I ended up taking my concept and put it into photoshop.  It is a good start.  It requires some more work but hopefully I will have it "completed" and ready to be "charged" by mid-week ( Read more... )

"Flood" - Jars of Clay

Rain, rain on my face
It hasn't stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become one with the mud

[Chorus:]

But if I can't swim after forty days
and my mind is crushed by the crashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up - when I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need ( Read more... )

Perpetual - VNV Nation ( Read more... )