Wow, I just had one of the best, top 10 sexual experiences of my life. It was with Pa, a chubby 33 yo of Japanese heritage here in west LA. We made out for a while then I sucked his dick, then he fucked me on my stomach, then on my back, piledriver style like in the best pornos. Our bodies pressed tightly together, our sweat mixing. What made this ( Read more... )

"The Ocean City buoys the heavy heart ( Read more... )

The quest for Pacific Islander dick has been somewhat successful so far. Gave a quick bj to a married straight guy by Ohikilolo Beach on Friday. On Saturday I had a threesome with a mixed Hawaiian and a Tahitian. Tahitians, or at least this Tahitian, must be among the world's greatest fuckers. Smooth, ruthless pounding. Grunting. No conversation. ( Read more... )

I j-ju-just ju-j-just woke up ( Read more... )

Another long and confusing day. Went ice skating during lunch yesterday. Interviewing interns tomorrow. Watched a French movie tonight. My dreams are large and unattainable.

Woke up this morning ready to fuck. Wish I had one of those latex ass sex toys. To practice on, since I haven't fucked a guy in years. It's interesting to see myself shifting between bottom and top as far as what I fantasize about and am drawn towards. In recent years, I generally fantasize about big, powerful asian tops. Taking control and ( Read more... )

I have a dream to find a boyfriend. I also have a dream to publish my own exam manual. Moving to India is not a dream that I have, but an interesting idea I think about. It is more of something others want for me than something I want for myself. Working 9am to 9pm is definitely not a dream that I have, in fact is something I hate. I also hate ( Read more... )

My supervisor De is so weird. Today she asked if I want to transfer to India for 1-2 years. It's amazing how she treats me like a commodity to be disposed of and traded. I said no thanks. I am interested in visiting the jungles and hidden temples of India, but I am just fine living in San Francisco. India is a place people want to move to the US ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel I am a secret agent, living two parallel but distinct lives.

In one life I am a busy professional. I set deadlines. Days fly by in flurries of reports and documents to review. Calls to make, analysts to nudge around the world. Mostly in Southern California and India. This life happens during weekdays.

In another life, I check out ( Read more... )

Last night in Vegas. Celine was as good as ever. She is like God, with a sense of humor. Tapas at Julian Serrano really hit the spot. Supposed to go gay clubbing tonight but don't feel like it. So what I'll see some hot guys there, maybe dance with one of them, and if it goes really well maybe a kiss. What's the point, my goal in life now is not to ( Read more... )