Ok, so yesterday afternoon, I took a nap. And the dream I had was awesome.

( This is long but totally cool. )

Before he left, on the last day we saw each other, he bought me chocolates. Tiny, white pearls in a brushed finished silvery tin. I shared them that night with whoever would have them. But at the end of the night my sister gave me her suggestion: To savor each one thereafter only when I felt I was missing him. But as emotions go, they are never ( Read more... )

 So on Sunday night I had the weird pregnancy/birth dream.

Monday night I had a dream about Tony and my family. It's like my cousins were on vacation in Italy, like a cruise or something water-related because we were on this tour/activity thing that involved narrow, inflatable kayak type things. Each sat 2 or 1 people, depending if you wanted to ( Read more... )

I have always been a "Yes" sort of person. A person with few boundaries preventing the outside from getting in. But more boundaries for keeping the inside from escaping. Usually through my lips. Maybe it's because I have always been a learner by experience. In this method, it is difficult to learn a great many things if you keep them out ( Read more... )

Yes. I think that things are still continuing to move. Perhaps it's some selfish thought that made me think that the world as I know it would experience this moment like a bated breath, waiting to see if it was safe and okay to exhale without offense to me. Which is odd, but the feeling has happened before. Something that I saw as a big deal... and ( Read more... )

I woke up feeling really aggravated with myself... and deeply sad. Not the sad that is common, not the sad that digs down deep but continues on up to the surface. No. I was aggravated on the surface - like a thick layer of ice, but beneath that ice, deep deep down, there was a glob of sadness. Because I had dreams that were important. And I forgot ( Read more... )

( One, two, three, twelve )

I'm not in a mood to write. It's unfortunate I haven't been updating daily. It's like my days disappear when there is no log of them. My brain can't hold the memories ( Read more... )

After much thought and analysis, I have distilled the main components of this incredible gem of a movie and listed them here. Go over each point carefully and thoughtfully since much work was done to truly capture the essence of this film.

( The Secret to Life According to this Film )

Can you feel me? I am thrilling, trilling, humming, thrumming, resonating at a frequency so close to perfect pitch. Can you hear it? Squeaking, shrilling, then moving deeper to hit your heart at it's bottom and rising, lifting your emotion out of your throat, so thick and syrupy with hope, you almost choke but can't resent it. Can you see me? I am ( Read more... )