Dreamings
So on Sunday night I had the weird pregnancy/birth dream.
Monday night I had a dream about Tony and my family. It's like my cousins were on vacation in Italy, like a cruise or something water-related because we were on this tour/activity thing that involved narrow, inflatable kayak type things. Each sat 2 or 1 people, depending if you wanted to share. Tony was in the front of our boat. And we kept laughing and goofing off with each other and splashing water at each other with our oars. Then he laughed and overreacted to one of my splashes or pushes or whatever and was like, "Oh..ohh...aahh" and "fell" into the water. I was cracking up because I knew he did it on purpose as a joke and I looked up and Keri's boat was facing ours and we were both smiling. But then a long-ish while went by and Tony still hadn't surfaced. It wasn't that long... but longer than I expected because I thought he would come up right away. And I started looking for the tour guide person but they were too far, my family was at the tail end of the group because we kept goofing off. And I had dropped the one oar that I had in panic and the oar Tony had was floating too far to reach.
The weird thing was that the boat itself had tiny little oars attached to the sides of the front and I had to use those dinky ones but couldnt get very far. I felt like I was doing a lot of work and 5 minutes hardly got me anywhere when all of a sudden I felt my boat pull backwards. I turned around to see what it was and Tony was there in the water grinning his stupid little boy smile with a hand on the back of my boat. I felt my eyes go wide and I shrieked at him and kept hitting him on his shoulders and arms yelling that I thought he had died and he was gone so long and he scared the shit out of me and to never do that again. And at first I was screaming and laughing because I got that it was a joke and I had been had, but by the end of my tirade I was crying and screaming and hitting him. And he got it right away and started hugging me and kissing the top of my head and apologizing with a smile in his voice. Then when I was laughing again, he pulled me in the water next to him. And we were in the Mediterranean Sea, kissing.
When we pulled apart, I could hear my Tita Sally saying we were crazy stupid idiots and my cousins who were nearby were laughing because he got such a rise out of me and I think they were shaken up too because they had thought he had died too or something awful.
Then last night, I had a different dream. I remember a lot of it. It started with me going to Pirates house because I was gonna pick up some sheet music even though he was in Japan because he told Matt to expect me. So when I went over I saw Matt who was as shy as usual. We were in the middle room of the first floor (but their house in my dream was different - it's always different, I don't know why). Then while Matt went to go out to either their shared room or the car or something, PIRATE came walking through one of the doorways. I startled and took a step backwards and he reached out one arm as if to catch me if I fell but he was a whole arms length too far anyway. But I wasn't going to fall.
M: Wh-wh-what are you dong here? *incredulous* Aren't you in Japan?
P: Yeah...some stuff happened.
M: Stuff?
Then while he was telling me what "happened" I was visualizing it in my head like a movie. And he and one of his friends were in some car accident due to some... "suspicious behavior" and the driver who was his friend received a huge fine and Pirate got deported because of some legal mumbo jumbo that he couldn't pay the fine.
Back to present:
P: Hey, listen. I'm on my way out....
M: Oh. Oh. Okay... Yeah, I'm just picking up the sheet music I had asked about from before.
P: Oh, right. *pause* Hey... you wanna go?
M: Go?
P: With me. It's with Jere and them.
M: Um, sure. Can you wait a sec until your brother gets the music to me?
P: Yeah fine.
"Hanging out" turns out to be going to Navy Pier (I'm guessing because there was a boardwalk area and lake). Jere was indeed there, so was Jere's girlfriend, Adrienne as well as Kristina. But they did not act like a dating couple. Her insecurity was emanating from her. I acted as normal, with a safe amount of reservation like when she's usually around. But the Pirate was acting strange. Like while we were walking down the boardwalk thing, he would tease me and poke fun at my expense but in a fun way not a mean way. And then between two posts on the boardwalk, everyone started to sit down so they could let their feet dangle off the edge. But there was no room for me so I sat behind them. Then Pirate scooted back a bit and leaned his elbow on my propped up knee. I nudged it away a little bit but then he just leaned even more heavily on it to keep it from moving too far away. I glanced up and saw Kristina watching us and I knew then for sure he had broken up with her and she felt like she couldn't say or do anything. I felt bad. And I didn't want him to keep flirting with me just because he was single now.
I actually made an excuse then and left. The next part of the dream, I was at home talking to Krisha for the first time in a long while. And she was telling me about this guy she had just met. The more she described him, the more it became apparent that the "guy" she was talking about was the Pirate. She didn't know it was the same as my Pirate because she had never seen him before. Then she left this awesome little tidbit. They had been talking on the phone off and on and just "last night" she went a step forward and started sending risque pictures of herself. Since we haven't been close in so long, I didn't tell her that it was him. I excused myself again and said I needed to get home.
On the way home, he texted me that he wanted to hang out later that night. I told him I was in my neighborhood and too tired to go drive all the way up there. So he told me he'd come by to my area and we went to the park near my old high school. And I remember it was a warm night with a nice cool breeze. We were sitting on the swings but not swinging. And I knew I was in control so I was poking fun at him and being kind of a jerk, teasing him. He also deserved the arrogant and insensitive treatment because of what I found out about him and Krisha. And I was all like, "Sooo what do you wanna talk about? You DID want to talk about something right? Don't tell me you made me drive here when I told you I was tired just so we could si-" I was gonna say "sit in silence," but I didn't get the chance to finish because he stood up from the swing where he had been staring off in the distance silently and turned to face my swing, holding on to the two chains to keep me from twisting the swing side to side which was what I had been doing.
I looked up to meet his eye contact and then I woke up.
Monday night I had a dream about Tony and my family. It's like my cousins were on vacation in Italy, like a cruise or something water-related because we were on this tour/activity thing that involved narrow, inflatable kayak type things. Each sat 2 or 1 people, depending if you wanted to share. Tony was in the front of our boat. And we kept laughing and goofing off with each other and splashing water at each other with our oars. Then he laughed and overreacted to one of my splashes or pushes or whatever and was like, "Oh..ohh...aahh" and "fell" into the water. I was cracking up because I knew he did it on purpose as a joke and I looked up and Keri's boat was facing ours and we were both smiling. But then a long-ish while went by and Tony still hadn't surfaced. It wasn't that long... but longer than I expected because I thought he would come up right away. And I started looking for the tour guide person but they were too far, my family was at the tail end of the group because we kept goofing off. And I had dropped the one oar that I had in panic and the oar Tony had was floating too far to reach.
The weird thing was that the boat itself had tiny little oars attached to the sides of the front and I had to use those dinky ones but couldnt get very far. I felt like I was doing a lot of work and 5 minutes hardly got me anywhere when all of a sudden I felt my boat pull backwards. I turned around to see what it was and Tony was there in the water grinning his stupid little boy smile with a hand on the back of my boat. I felt my eyes go wide and I shrieked at him and kept hitting him on his shoulders and arms yelling that I thought he had died and he was gone so long and he scared the shit out of me and to never do that again. And at first I was screaming and laughing because I got that it was a joke and I had been had, but by the end of my tirade I was crying and screaming and hitting him. And he got it right away and started hugging me and kissing the top of my head and apologizing with a smile in his voice. Then when I was laughing again, he pulled me in the water next to him. And we were in the Mediterranean Sea, kissing.
When we pulled apart, I could hear my Tita Sally saying we were crazy stupid idiots and my cousins who were nearby were laughing because he got such a rise out of me and I think they were shaken up too because they had thought he had died too or something awful.
Then last night, I had a different dream. I remember a lot of it. It started with me going to Pirates house because I was gonna pick up some sheet music even though he was in Japan because he told Matt to expect me. So when I went over I saw Matt who was as shy as usual. We were in the middle room of the first floor (but their house in my dream was different - it's always different, I don't know why). Then while Matt went to go out to either their shared room or the car or something, PIRATE came walking through one of the doorways. I startled and took a step backwards and he reached out one arm as if to catch me if I fell but he was a whole arms length too far anyway. But I wasn't going to fall.
M: Wh-wh-what are you dong here? *incredulous* Aren't you in Japan?
P: Yeah...some stuff happened.
M: Stuff?
Then while he was telling me what "happened" I was visualizing it in my head like a movie. And he and one of his friends were in some car accident due to some... "suspicious behavior" and the driver who was his friend received a huge fine and Pirate got deported because of some legal mumbo jumbo that he couldn't pay the fine.
Back to present:
P: Hey, listen. I'm on my way out....
M: Oh. Oh. Okay... Yeah, I'm just picking up the sheet music I had asked about from before.
P: Oh, right. *pause* Hey... you wanna go?
M: Go?
P: With me. It's with Jere and them.
M: Um, sure. Can you wait a sec until your brother gets the music to me?
P: Yeah fine.
"Hanging out" turns out to be going to Navy Pier (I'm guessing because there was a boardwalk area and lake). Jere was indeed there, so was Jere's girlfriend, Adrienne as well as Kristina. But they did not act like a dating couple. Her insecurity was emanating from her. I acted as normal, with a safe amount of reservation like when she's usually around. But the Pirate was acting strange. Like while we were walking down the boardwalk thing, he would tease me and poke fun at my expense but in a fun way not a mean way. And then between two posts on the boardwalk, everyone started to sit down so they could let their feet dangle off the edge. But there was no room for me so I sat behind them. Then Pirate scooted back a bit and leaned his elbow on my propped up knee. I nudged it away a little bit but then he just leaned even more heavily on it to keep it from moving too far away. I glanced up and saw Kristina watching us and I knew then for sure he had broken up with her and she felt like she couldn't say or do anything. I felt bad. And I didn't want him to keep flirting with me just because he was single now.
I actually made an excuse then and left. The next part of the dream, I was at home talking to Krisha for the first time in a long while. And she was telling me about this guy she had just met. The more she described him, the more it became apparent that the "guy" she was talking about was the Pirate. She didn't know it was the same as my Pirate because she had never seen him before. Then she left this awesome little tidbit. They had been talking on the phone off and on and just "last night" she went a step forward and started sending risque pictures of herself. Since we haven't been close in so long, I didn't tell her that it was him. I excused myself again and said I needed to get home.
On the way home, he texted me that he wanted to hang out later that night. I told him I was in my neighborhood and too tired to go drive all the way up there. So he told me he'd come by to my area and we went to the park near my old high school. And I remember it was a warm night with a nice cool breeze. We were sitting on the swings but not swinging. And I knew I was in control so I was poking fun at him and being kind of a jerk, teasing him. He also deserved the arrogant and insensitive treatment because of what I found out about him and Krisha. And I was all like, "Sooo what do you wanna talk about? You DID want to talk about something right? Don't tell me you made me drive here when I told you I was tired just so we could si-" I was gonna say "sit in silence," but I didn't get the chance to finish because he stood up from the swing where he had been staring off in the distance silently and turned to face my swing, holding on to the two chains to keep me from twisting the swing side to side which was what I had been doing.
I looked up to meet his eye contact and then I woke up.