My Story

[spamisblue]

I have an insane need to share my story. I've kept quiet about it long enough, and I'm bursting in need of support; people who know what I'm going through, people who care.

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[blueserenity22]

**hugs** I was the same way when I was a kid. Thinking how foolish it was for girls to keep themselves in relationships that were obviously dangerous and unhealthy. What I never understood was that the abuser doesn't usually start OUT with abuse. They start out with kind words and sweet gestures. So the girl ends up thinking she's making it up.

I've been through many of the same experiences as you and I'm sorry you went through it.

I never had much of a childhood, and am starting to feel the effects of that now (I'm 21) and desperately wishing that I could, just for awhile, become a child again. Be carefree, and happy. Sure, everybody can be happy... but we lose the child's eyes as we become older and it gets hard. I didn't have as hard of a childhood as many of the people here, but all the same, it affects me. I wasn't abused, but emotionally neglected. Left alone.

I'm glad that you are able and willing to tell your story, it can really help in your healing. This is the best survivor community I've found on livejournal. I've been able to share some of my deepest secrets on here and almost always someone else has said, "Me, too." It's a wonderful yet heartbreaking feeling knowing that you're pain is understood.

As for the cutting, vitamin E lotion is really good. I was a cutter for 6 years and have managed to fade many of my scars... with time and lotion. I still have a few that are visible, but it's not as bad as it could be.

Sorry this is so long. I'm kind of rambling. Take care ♥ *hugs*