a steady rain has been falling since i woke this morning. the rain is good for my garden but not so good for my plans to go to the botanical gardens today with tony.I had a dream last night about him. In my dream Tony and I were high school students at my old high school. we had cut class and were laying in a field and kissing as rain fell upon us ( Read more... )

last night i walked home from work with one of my good buddies, jamie. jamie is one of the chefs at the restaurant where i work. we walked fast smoking cigarettes and talked about oysters. i told him that i've never eaten oysters though i do have a deep curiosity with them. i have always thought oysters were poisonous unless eaten raw, but this ( Read more... )

we are in a grey period. winter slowing down time ( Read more... )

hal·cy·on ( Read more... )

Glass is an amorphic solid. now we're talking about transparency. - transparent; we are made of glass, throwing stones. but, Is the band gap in that material less than 3 electrons? Diamond is crystalline. and it is, and we are, transparent. (Bg 5.4 electron volts) and did you know? and don't forget, -Obsidian is opaque, -Metals have no band gap, ( ( Read more... )

last night i met s downtown at the jay st a. she was sitting on a silver bar wearing a red hat. i saw her as the train was arriving, i was too far and too shy to yell. i walked towards her slowly, weaving my way through the crowd. i made no effort to rush and no attempt to catch the train. i dont like to chase machines anymore ( Read more... )

"kill em with cayenne" - alloysious

Firesong

Born green we were
to this flawed garden,
but in speckled thickets, warted as a toad,
spitefully skulks our warden,
fixing his snare
which hauls down buck, cock, trout, till all most fair
is tricked to faulter in split blood.

Now our whole task's to hack
some angel-shape worth wearing
from his crabbed midden where all's wrought so ( Read more... )

1broke that promise to myself.
2 read bukowski in the park.
3 had falafel in the bar.
4 rode my bike to the money store.
while there, the people, they told me i looked like the "lady from that tv show" "no the girl from that movie" "scary movie",
"no fara faucet", ... i laughed.
5 i said i wish i had that kind of money. its something my dad would say. ( Read more... )

day 2 and im already making trips to the bar,
when did i become so weak. ?

im glad he wasnt there.
but still im lickin' knives,

-drinking coffee and trying to get high-.
metallic tastes of blood and beans from celebes.

i smoke that herbal tea and it just makes me sleepy.

i just cant stay away.

"you just cant stay away..." kenny said something in the bar ( Read more... )