Unaware that I’m tearing you asunder…

[sexytarawitch]

My dreams were filled with images that I wanted to do anything to scrub them out of my memory. I wasn’t sure what made my heart hurt more, killing people or the idea of Spike and I fighting for years

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[theurbancowboy]

I was drowning in whiskey and perfectly fine with that little fact. I couldn't get those goddamn eyes out of my head. Women, why the fuck do I let them consume me? I'd ignored Lilah for years, and kept Eve from getting attached; it's Darla's fault. Angel's goddamn family, all comes back to them doesn't it

[sexytarawitch]

He invites me in and that takes something off my shoulders. I don't know how much but it's enough for me to not question it and follow him in.

My arms still wrapped around me I look around the apartment and the smell of liquor is heavy in the air and it's all over him. So much so that the memory of my father catches onto me for a moment before I shake it off.

What to I want? If I knew would I be here? Would I be questioning my own sanity?

"I...I didn't ha-have anywhere to go...I-I'm s-sorry..." I murmured, keeping myself small and wishing that I could just vanish or maybe even rewind time and never come here. "I s-shouldn't...I shouldn't have come..." I small sob escaped my throat and I closed my eyes for a moment before wiping my eyes. "I-I'll go..."

I started to head for the door. This was a bad idea. A very bad idea.

[theurbancowboy]

I glare at her, she's just going to play the pitiful little girl and walk out. What the fuck? I jump up and move to block her path to the door.

"Fuck that, tell me why you are here, in my living room, soaked to the goddamn bone and shaking with tears," and not with your fucking vampire lover?

I'm standing there, the bottle abandoned next to the couch, my hands shoved in my pockets giving away that I'm more hurt than angry despite my words and my tone of voice. Fucking women! I could scream at her for making me feel this way when she's standing there and looking like that.

How could someone like her be there and do that? And look like that when she's crying?

I look at her and have to force myself to keep my face stoney and uncaring. Fuck her for doing this to me.

[sexytarawitch]

The smells coming off of him send me into a tailspin and I back away from him, moving around the room and trying to get myself together. "I..."

The urge to get angry was starting to push over my sorrow and I had to do my best to hold it down. "I-I'm sorry I w-wasn't there to h-help with the tattoo's..." I offered patheticly. "T-things h-happened...s-shouldn't have happened...I just..."

I swallowed hard and I could feel myself get even colder from the wet clothes and I wondered if vampires could get sick or anything like that. It's not like I have an instruction manual.

Brushing my hair away from my face I stopped walking and looked over at him. "Things...things went so w-wrong..." I paused when I looked at him, when I really looked at him, causing me to gasp. "Lindsey?"

Moving over to him I let the senses coming off of him wash over me as I tried to touch his face. "W-who hurt you? D-did they...did they find you? The people you were h-hiding from... I-it was my fault they f-found you..."

[sexytarawitch]

He's kissing me and I feel bad but Spike fly's out of my mind and I lose myself even more into his kiss. I let go of Spike for the moment, I let go of the pain and the hurt and everything and just felt here and now.

Oh god it felt good and it shouldn't, I shouldn't let it.

Instead of pulling away I press my body more to his, craving the warmth and something else he had that I couldn't place but I knew I needed more.

My eyes searched his face and all I saw was honesty in his eyes, my - unneeded - breath caught in my throat. "Me. But...Why?" I wasn't sure why, as a girl I was never anything special. Now I was just a fucked up mess, so why would he even think of wanting me or having anything to do with me.

I didn't give him a chance to answer as I tightened my arms around him and kissed him hard, pressing my body flush against his. He felt so good, so warm, so alive. I need it. Need him. Want him.

He wants me...the girl. I know that without a question.

[theurbancowboy]

I didn't have time to answer her question because her arms were around me again and her lips were pressed against mine. Her tounge probed my mouth and I groaned as her body rubbed against mine, Fuck how did something so wrong, and yeah I'm well aware of how wrong this is, feel so right? It felt so fucking good and the next thing I knew my hands were at the hem of her soaking shirt and lifting up, breaking the kiss long enough to rid her of the damn shirt before I slam my lips back against her.

All thoughts of Spike and Angel and anything but that cool mouth were so far from the realm of my mind. I lifted my hands to cup her breasts, fuck she felt so good and all I wanted was to throw her down on the bed and fuck her senseless.

Hell sounds like a good idea to me.

I push her back on the bed and settled between her thighs pressing my now very hard cock against her. My hands settled on her thighs rubbing hard circles there as I nipped down her throat to her breasts.

"Fuck your beautiful."

[sexytarawitch]

His lips were on mine, my shirt somehow found it's way off and then I was pushed onto the bed. "Fuck." I gasped, reaching up and pulling at his shirt but his hands were still on my body. My patients ran out and I just ripped it from him, baring his chest to my gaze

[theurbancowboy]

Can't say I don't love a woman who likes to take control, of course I have a feeling it's got a little more to do with that demon inside her, but hey it's really apparent i've got a thing for chicks who get turned into vampires, so what the hell ya know