A near life experience is taking walks in wet grass with no shoes at midnight. A near-life experience is feeling numb in the mind. A near-life experience is spending time talking to the guy who takes your order at Wendy's simply because he's alive and your happy to be around him. A near-life experience is sleeping naked. A near-life experience is ( Read more... )

I've been sitting in the same spot for over an hour, feeling excited, intimidated, motivated, afraid, and confident. It appears I've entered the delirious stage of being sick. Or my surroundings are finally catching up with me. It's been a strange, fast three weeks. I've already managed to get an apartment, make a couple new friends, force myself ( Read more... )

Why am I feeling it necessary to organize my journal? Is it that it gets published publicly to facebook? That shouldn't matter; only people who really cared would bother to read it. And if they really care, they know me, and if they know me, they get me. Why do I feel like I need to organize my insanity? It's like being sick and needing to throw up ( Read more... )

CiCi, shut up. You're annoying me.

Quit sizing yourself up to what people around you are. The only standard that matters is your own. So what if you're taking a semester off? Do you see men in suits knocking at your door to haul you away for committing some serious offense against society? Even if they did, you never cared for society and its ideals ( Read more... )

 
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     Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind is a phrase coined from a poem by Pope, which was turned into an indie film in 2004. The ideas presented in the film are fantasy; no one can actually have a medical procedure where parts of their memories are triggered for termination. The idea makes for an awesome movie and spectacular plot, but never did ( Read more... )

     I clench my palms until my fingernails leave half-moons against my skin. Why should I care? Sure it's nice to know my nails have grown long enough to actually imprint my skin, but it's not like anyone has noticed. I think I need a drink, but shit--everything has sugar and I'm using sparingly (just like the top of the fucking food pyramid ( Read more... )