Oh hai lj. Or i should say dead j. Dead journal dead jake dead joy. Nobody comes here anymore it's like it's time to reread great expectations.

the internet but i don't know where else to go. I don't like Portland. It's beautiful but lonely here. Beauty don't mean a thing without love. I feel lost as ever. I don't like the times we're living in. I don't feel like I'm living in real life. I want to go back to when anything made some sense. A.n.o.m.i.e forever alone in my misery. I miss my ( Read more... )

Not sure what could feel more wrong than my current life.

You make me feel like i dont exist. Im fading away as we are. Are you gaslighting, punishing, grounded by your parents at 39. Are you preserving me in your back pocket for a good time? You bruised my whole being, and i think youre gonna kiss it better. Maybe next week. Youre the worst kind of geek.

I thought that was the body and it was the head. Motherhood, techmology, wage slavery, love victim, loveless victim. Bad ideas. Forays. All i gotta say, if youre gonna, if you wanna be with someone, BE with them. Cuz if you dont, you're not. I was a crazy cock vampire. I sucked his blood, he sapped my brain. He was more of a zombie. I need more ( Read more... )

why'd you have to throw my hula hoop up in that tree?
just to make it extra clear that you don't love me

watch me hula hooping in the rain
and not even think it's cute.

that's how out of love you are with me.

sometimes i feel like giving up
and then i realize i already have

i know who you are when you smile ( Read more... )

Will you marry me?
Sometimes I want to say that to anyone,
not necessarily do it, but say it.