One of my recurring dreams is that I'm still 'with' Eric somehow and it's a nightmare. It's my own feeling of feeling trapped and helpless I think because i know how it feels now and how it would feel if i were still in that place. Words can't describe how relieved it feels waking up except just that weightless or a weight lifted.

In my dream, he ( Read more... )

Infiltration of Evil: This one happened at an odd hour. Do you ever feel like you're in a mini coma and you're strapped down, can't move, can't scream, and can't awake? It's really scary. It's as if a heavy brick scaffolding is on your body, and your mind. It happens to me quite frequently and is reminiscent of overdosing on drugs that affect your ( Read more... )

This week Ivan texted me asking me if I was alive, and when I didn't respond in a timely manner he still texted me again with a follow-up. Follow-ups are nice, and difficult, which I know, so I appreciate them from anyone, even family. The last time he asked to hang out, which he does quite frequently, I had that really bad day at work and told him ( Read more... )