Cats: although the situation with CC had improved somewhat over the months, Opal and Serena went pee-crazy a few weeks ago and basically pissed everywhere. Over the course of a week, there was cat pee ( Read more... )

I don't really feel motivated to do much of anything lately, but I know I need to eat or I will feel even MORE miserable. I am minimally functional, I guess. I spend most of my days in pajamas, distracting myself from my actual feelings and existence as much as possible ( Read more... )

My mother and her mother both share a bizarre kind of helplessness. It's not the kind of helplessness, for example, typically associated with depression. It's weird, and it's been on my mind a lot lately. Is it a lack of common sense? Or what ( Read more... )

My family was here tonight (Stepmom, one sister, two nieces & two nephews.) Their presence is so, so healing to me.

This may seem weird, but a lot of people in my life don't know yet that I am no longer a vegetarian. It feels weird to even say "I'm not a vegetarian."

I originally thought of this as a possibly-temporary experiment. But for now, at least, it looks like it is going to be a permanent change. Though I am not happy about it, I feel better when I eat ( Read more... )

If I were ever to become fantastically wealthy, this is what I would like to do ( Read more... )

So, you know, sometimes I still feel really angry about my mother. And, after many years of denying that anyone was to blame for my life's problems, blah blah, I realized after years of therapy that actually, my mother IS to blame for almost all of my life's problems. That doesn't mean that I think it's her job to FIX my life's problems; that's my ( Read more... )

I bleached my hair again last week. I had to do it twice, but I think that might have been a problem of application: R helped me put it on, and in the back there were lots of skipped places/too thin application, and then I ran out of bleach at the top of my head so the application was thin there too. The places that I laid it on thick myself and ( Read more... )

Uncle H died at 1am. He never regained consciousness. My cousin K said she told him I loved him.

In December of 2009, I met my great-uncle H for the first time. I got in contact with him via Facebook the previous summer. We have kept in touch via FB and he invited me to his home on Xmas to meet him and his family. He came down here last fall to visit with me and meet my siblings and stepmom ( Read more... )