I don't see "love" as you call it when you send me your e-mails. I see a desperation knowing that you have lost me. You are trying so hard to put your hooks back into my soul. How can you love someone you hardly know? How can you feel emotions for someone who's live you have never seen. Pictures don't share the full story of who we are. They are ( Read more... )

I am not one to cut people out like I did to you. It goes against my nature. I've always considered myself a "friend to everyone." In most cases I am kind and compassionate to those around me. So their is very little reason for me to remove someone from my life in such a dramatic fashion. To go from talking to dead air in the matter of moments ( Read more... )

Silent constant Migraines. That is what I've been told is causing the Visual Snow that has bothered me over the past few years. Between that and the Tinnitus I can tell you it has not been the best of Journeys. I have learned about new ways the body seeks to drive us insane. I have found that my tolerance has grown a bit. Even when it doesn't seem ( Read more... )

Words cannot make sense of the tragic events that I see. The deaths of 18 children all under the age of twelve. Schools are suppose to be a safe place. Yet in this day and age no place is truly safe. For someone like me who can feel off emotions these kinds of events are not fun. You can draw off of them and feed off of it. Not something you can ( Read more... )

Cut too much sleep last night. On top of the flu shot and the fact that I did a bike ride I should not have. I had to leave her behind tonight. She wants to remain friends. To start over. I needed to separate myself. I can't help her in my current state. The Roller Coaster keeps weakening me and the darkness tried to claim me once last week. ( Read more... )

I have felt it. A personal storm unlike anything else I have ever faced. Not triggered by any major event or person. But one that will test who I am. I had hoped it had already passed. But now I am not sure.

Darkside.. it's been a while since we last saw each other......

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You don't need to see what is going on inside of me right now. You have your own battles and mine have always been best fought alone. You don't need to see how lonely I am. Or how damaged my own soul is. Years of actions have taken their toll. Glad you don't have the same talents I do. Glad you can't feel what is going on with me. Gives me the ( Read more... )

I can't tell you how I feel because right now you would not understand. That I'm holding back my own emotions because to rush in would hurt you far worse. I'm not doing this for my sake. But rather just looking out for you. I want things to happen just as badly as you do. But I see the cracks and the breaks. Your not strong enough yet. You want ( Read more... )

Exploded right under my feet.