I am going home tomorrow, or rather today...and rather to "my parent's house." I don't know, it feels sooooooo weird...I don't want to go home. This is the first weekend since Aug. 22nd that I will be at "home." I don't know if its just me, but I really don't know how I feel about going back anymore...It's just not my HOME anymore, the things ( Read more... )

I am realizing that this is just not working out. There really has to be more to life than just this... I am tired of being WAAAAAAY to nice to everyone I know, and in return being treated like dirt. I am done! Time to stand up and speak up for myself.

Have you ever been totally sure about what you wanted, and for once in your life known that it feels right...but still not gone after it? I HATE that about myself. I don't go after ANYTHING in life. I don't know what it is, but it is some sort of weird complex, where I do not think I deserve anything good or worthwhile. Well, I feel like I ( Read more... )

I want to know who it ever works out for? It sure as heck is not working out for me... I guess I just have to be patient, but that has never been a strong point...

I LOVE it when my friends are happy! I seriously feel like everything is working out for everyone around me, and that makes me really glad and giddy inside. I am happy that my friends are happy. I am mostly happy too...and I guess thats good too...OK, pointless entry, I am just glad everyone is doing well...

- 10 years ago (1995): I just came to America, I was in the 4th grade, and I knew zero english ( Read more... )

What happens after things don't go on anymore?

I love mothers, well I love mine in any case. She is seriously one of the most caring and the most underappreciated people I have ever met. I love her to death, although I don't know if she knows that. And everything she does is soooooo appreciated, that it almost brings tears to my eyes, but I don't know if she knows that too. I guess I should ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had one of the best times in a long time. I don't know, I guess the change of crowd and scenery really helps. I also met a preson that I already knew, but did not really know, you know?? And that was loads of fun.

I don't know what's wrong but I can't sleep. I just can't. I really want to, and I try, I try really really hard...I just can't. It is really annoying and starting to take toll on my life. I am always whining, like I am doing now, and kind of in a all around suck mood. I need to sleep!...I just can't. The fact is though, I don't know why I am ( Read more... )