Am I the only chicken?
Have you ever been totally sure about what you wanted, and for once in your life known that it feels right...but still not gone after it? I HATE that about myself. I don't go after ANYTHING in life. I don't know what it is, but it is some sort of weird complex, where I do not think I deserve anything good or worthwhile. Well, I feel like I deserve it, but I believe that I can't have it, or that it is completely unattainable by me. I wish I had more balls, or ANY for that matter. I am such a chicken when it comes to really revealing how I feel, or what I really want. I guess rejection plays a HUGE role in these feelings, I am absolutely MORTIFIED of it. Some people say, "What's the worse that can happen?? He can say no..." And to them it's no big deal, but to me...I don't know...I JUST HATE BEING A CHICKEN!